Post by Callie Montgomery on Dec 14, 2015 10:08:58 GMT -6
Callie tilted her head to the side. Taking a sip of water she raised an eyebrow. “So what was your family like? You have any siblings?” She asked. One question at a time. It was hard for her to restrain herself in that moment. There was a million and one questions she wanted to be asking. But she didn’t want to bombard the girl. This wasn’t an interrogation.
She smiled, “So does that mean I can’t ever record ya?” She asked, needing to know. If Morrigan really didn’t want to be recorded, Callie would respect that. No matter how hard it would be. She would have to think on her toes and come up with another way to get what she wanted.
Her ears listened intently as the girl explained. It was quite remarkable. “So you can tell when people are upset and such? That’s amazin’. So when you heal them, where does that go?” She asked, she looked around, wondering if she could see everyone’s aura right now. This girl wasn’t bad. She could help people. Something Callie centers her life around. The only difference was this girl could actually use her powers to help them. Tremendously at that.
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Dec 16, 2015 17:20:29 GMT -6
"I probably have siblings, but I wouldn't know because the Clan doesn't operate like that. On birth we're taken away from our parents and raised by the community. It takes a village to raise a child is the proverb we go by. Or...well they I guess now. I was kicked out." She shrugged. Killing someone was apparently frowned upon and they hadn't wanted the bad publicity. Stupid. They said they were superior to humans and yet they proceeded to be afraid of a simple lawsuit. What a bunch of pansies. When Callie asked if she'd ever be able to record Morrigan, Morrigan sighed.
"It might change at some point, but at the current time I'm not seeing it sorry." And then the girl asked where the shadows went when she healed someone. Morrigan bit her lip slightly before answering.
"As far as I can tell so far, when I heal someone of part of a shadow I gain the shadow. So basically I see emotional auras and if I choose to heal someone else partially, I'm inflicting pain on myself."
Post by Callie Montgomery on Dec 17, 2015 7:52:34 GMT -6
Callie began eating the pasta on her plate. The sauce was…lackluster. Her taste buds craving more flavor. She’d still eat it though. She took her bread and pushed it around her plate, letting it absorb the extra sauce that was there. “That’s an interestin’ setup up.” She couldn’t imagine not knowing who her parents were, although I guess if she was raised like that it probably wouldn’t bother here. Who knows?
“Ain’t ya curious who your parents are though?” She asked, she had to ask. She needed to know her take on the whole situation. It was clear that she didn’t necessarily see eye to eye with them on certain things. Maybe this was another thing that she disagreed on.
“There’s still a possibility, and I’m hopeful.” She said with a smile. She hadn’t thought about or really cared how she came across. She records people, that’s what she did and it wasn’t going to change. She shifted in her seat slightly, still taking bites of her food every so often.
As Morrigan spoke about her powers more Callie mind was racing. This girl was special. In helping other people she has to sacrifice a part of herself. It was…inspiring. She clearly has done it before because she knows the consequence. The question was how often does she do it and why. “That’s truly special. Having the ability to help people like that.”
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Dec 19, 2015 22:52:29 GMT -6
"Why would I be curious? I mean I guess I'm a little curious if I take after them in speed or hair colour or whatever, but it isn't that big a deal." She hadn't known them since birth, so it hadn't really mattered. The people who had mattered were the ones in her village. Then Callie said it was 'truly special' and Morrigan gave a dry chuckle.
"Ah yes. Special. That's one word for it. First time I did it it was to help someone in my village who was grieving for their student, which is the closest to children people in the Clan have. And then I kept helping people because I didn't know there were consequences. And then I killed someone. So you see, those shadows have consequences that are felt by me. At this point, someone would have to be a hell of a special person for me to heal them of a shadow." She sighed and took a bite of her food, her face a mixture of frustration and seriousness. She couldn't use that part of her power without detriment to herself after all.
Post by Callie Montgomery on Dec 21, 2015 7:45:19 GMT -6
Callie gave the girl a shrug, “I dunno. I guess I’d be curious.” She admitted. She wasn’t sure if she was curious for the girl, or she would be curious if she was in that situation. Maybe it was a bit of both. She didn’t push the matter anymore.
Callie took another bite of her food while Morrigan spoke. She tilted her head slightly to the side, a bit confused. “So if ya heal too many folk it makes you kill someone?” She asked, eyes wide. That is quite a trade-off. Callie watched the girl. She could tell it was frustrating to her. All that told her was that this girl wasn’t a bad person. That she would help people all of the time if it didn’t have such a severe consequence. Maybe something could be done. Something could always be done. She was determined to find out what.
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Dec 24, 2015 16:13:16 GMT -6
"It doesn't make me kill someone. It makes my spirit have enough shadow that killing someone genuinely seems like a good and fun idea." She smiled slightly. The shadowy part of her spirit was talking right now, and it had no problems killing.
"I hurt everything I touch, and I don't care. After all, it's a good time." She chuckled.
Post by Callie Montgomery on Jan 4, 2016 9:34:33 GMT -6
Callie furrowed her brows. Interesting didn’t seem like an appropriate word to use anymore for this girl. She took another bite of her food before responding. She was still trying to wrap her idea around this entire concept.
“But are there times where your spirit doesn’t have shadows? What then?” She asked wide eyed and full of curiosity. She held the fork full of spaghetti close to her mouth. A noodle or two fell off before Callie lowered it back to her plate.
She gave a shrug, “That ain’t what it seems like it me.”
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Jan 5, 2016 2:24:51 GMT -6
"When my spirit doesn't have shadows...hmmm are there times?" Then suddenly a somewhat shocked look came over her face.
"Yes there are times. But they are few and far between like now. Generally I just shrink back because of the terrible guilt the light side of me harbours. I don't know how to change that." Morrigan laughed and snapped her fingers.
"Well THAT was unexpected. Light version of me coming out to play. Go figure. But that won't happen again for a while. Maybe if I hurt someone else, it'll be gone for good that pesky personality. Say, want to volunteer?"
Post by Callie Montgomery on Jan 5, 2016 7:27:41 GMT -6
Callie kept eating. The food on her plate slowly disappeared as she felt herself becoming satiated. She would have never guessed a trip to the cafeteria would have ended up this interesting. Then again, you never knew who you’d run into at this school. Or town for that matter. There were a vast amount of people from all different places. It had Callie more than intrigued.
Morrigan however may have made herself at the top of Callie’s list. She gave a soft smile when the girl had to question herself and seemed more than surprised at her conclusion to the answer. Callie tilted her head slightly to the side, eyes focused on the girl across from her. Her fork danced around on her plate below. “Guilt? Ya mean like over the things ya’ve done…’cause of the shadows?” This was progress.
Callie let out a giggle. Pointing her fork at Morrigan she spoke, “You’re funny.”
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Jan 6, 2016 3:56:29 GMT -6
"The dark side of me doesn't care. No guilt, just fun. But the light side of me is pesky. Yeah light me cares way too much." She sighed.
"Apparently this is a day I can push my dark side away for a few precious minutes. I feel guilt, but what happens is the shadows cloud my whole spirit and personality most of the time. Sometimes I fight back the shadows and that means I can talk clearly like this. The good side of me. The dark me...she gets pushed aside. But it takes a lot of effort, and I can't be good all the time. The shadows...well what happens naturally is everyone has light and shadow. They work in harmony and balance each other. My powers work against that. When I take someone's shadow to lessen their pain, I take on the shadow myself. It upsets the balance. In the other person, that just means they're in less pain. But with me...that means I have more shadow in me. And I could lessen it by reflecting on myself, but do you realize what that would mean? That would effectively destroy me because at the current time I'm an awful person." She sighed.
"And reflecting takes someone who bothers to ask the right questions and actually care what the hell happens to me. Neither of which are happening any time soon. It's tiring even to stay light like this. Dark me could back any moment. It isn't like we're different people, or even personalities. But it's the mood. It clouds my spirit basically. I can fight it, or I can leave it be."
Post by Callie Montgomery on Feb 9, 2016 13:35:30 GMT -6
Callie listened as Morrigan spoke. “Hm seems like ya gotcha yourself a bit of a dilemma huh?” She smiled. This girl clearly seemed to favor her darkside, but clearly there was more to this story. Callie placed her fork on her plate and pushed the empty plate over to the side.
The more she spoke the more Callie realized how complicated this was. It was a shame. Morrigan seemed like a good girl. Whether so thought so of herself was irrelevant. “You ain’t an awful person.” She offered as some sort of solace.
Callie reached out her hand with her palm open. Inviting Morrigan to take it. “I care.”
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Feb 10, 2016 20:23:35 GMT -6
She heard the girl's words. All of them. She just stayed silent listening and taking in what the other girl was doing. Honestly it kind of shocked her that someone could see what was happening to her. Most people couldn't quite grasp what was happening. The shock was probably apparent in her eyes, though likely not on her face. Someone could see she was battling this. It was so often a struggle that was completely invisible to others. One of the only times someone had seen it was at her trial. Someone had seen that she needed help, not imprisonment. They gave her a bit of each. She looked at the hand that was offered kind of like it was completely foreign. She wasn't used to people being so apparent in what they were saying, never mind showing that physically. She reached out, but then she saw the shadow that was swirling around her hand and withdrew it. She couldn't always control the shadows. Sometimes when she was feeling vulnerable they automatically came to her beck and call.
The last thing Morrigan wanted to do was hurt anyone else, especially this girl who was so willing to offer understanding. She wasn't going to fuck that up if she could help it.
"I'm glad you think so. Most people don't see it that way." The voice was quiet, but still quite audible.
Post by Callie Montgomery on Feb 15, 2016 9:36:33 GMT -6
Callie remained silent. There was a soft smile present on her face. The entire room seemed to be quiet almost as if there was no one else in it but the two of them. Callie was focused on Morrigan and hell-bent on helping her in any way she could. Morrigan was still and quiet. It didn’t faze Callie in the slightest. She had a feeling that Morrigan must have thought Callie was crazy for wanting to be involved with her let alone help her. It was almost as if the girl never really had someone who cared about her. Most saw her as this dark girl who murdered an innocent person but most people failed to realize was why. There was always three sides of a story: one side, the other side and the truth.
The blondes hand remained outstretched hoping Morrigan would take it. When she didn’t Callie pulled it back. She saw the attempt, and that was enough for her. Callie was about to speak again when she heard the soft voice escape Morrigan’s lips. Her smile grew softly. “I ain’t most people.”
Post by Morrigan LaFayette on Feb 16, 2016 3:54:05 GMT -6
She could see the smile. She heard the words. Her shock and disbelief made way for an emotion she often tried not to feel. Sadness. Sadness that she tried not to feel it. That she had resigned herself to not having friends because of what she'd done. Resignation that she was basically a monster. A single tear slipped down Morrigan's cheek at the realization that someone was willing to listen. Just...to try to understand.
"You have no idea of the terror you feel when you can't completely control what you're doing. My emotions combine with the shadows. If I ever want to get rid of the shadows, I have to deal with the emotions. But part of me is dark and...it doesn't want to get rid of the shadows." She sighed, running a hand through her hair. Her voice was still a little toned down. Generally Morrigan was an in-your-face type of person. But right now she was just trying to get her point across.
"That part of me thinks it is a monster and is perfectly happy staying one. And one day, I'm going to hurt someone else. That scares me to death. Knowing that one day I might stop fighting it." She felt guilty for dumping on someone she'd just met. She felt guilty for bothering this girl with her problems. Hell, Morrigan could feel guilty about pretty much anything if she tried.
"I could solve it some by talking about how I felt about myself, but that would painful. It always is when you aren't proud of the person you are."
Post by Callie Montgomery on Feb 23, 2016 8:56:52 GMT -6
It was apparent the girl was struggling. She was fighting an internal battle that no one else could understand. No one else wanted to try. Callie’s eyes went wide when she saw a tear roll down Morrigan’s cheek. She immediately stood up, went around the table and took a seat beside her. She was desperately fighting the urge to hug the girl, but she knew better to do so in this moment. Hopefully just her close proximity would be of some comfort.
Callie didn’t speak. Her mind was busy trying to find the right words to say. She listened as Morrigan continued. She took in a deep breath as Morrigan finished speaking. She took in everything she had just heard. This girl was torn and all Callie wanted to do was to stitch her up. But that was always easy said than done. “You’re right. I have absolutely no idea what it’s like.” She admitted honestly. “I can’t even imagine what it would be like. But…” She held up a finger. “I can tell you that if you want to try. You got me.” She said with a warm smile. “And why wouldn’t you be proud of who ya are? You sure are one hell of a strong person that’s fo’ sure. To be able to handle this and seem unaffected. Not to mention not letttin’ anyone bring ya down. You embrace who you are. Now that is somethin’ to be proud of.”