Post by Roxana Strix on Mar 16, 2015 13:53:44 GMT -6
Elsa's response at least revealed to Roxana that Elsa was not yet ready to be completely useful to SIGUARD. She still did not seem to be completely prepared to do whatever needed to be done to achieve a greater goal. Roxana thought she as close because of the things the other girl did for her sister and school, but she was not yet there. She had to be able to dish out punishments to those who deserved it or else things were never going to fully change. Some people just learned better when pain pr a negative result happened for that they did.
Roxana was one of those people who learned best by punishment and yes praise. Punishment just seemed to be what she got more often, which just meant she would work that much harder to get that occasional praise. "I'm not. I learn better with pain and I need to go through rehabilitation if I'm to hope of getting control over what is wrong with me." Roxana said. She was convincing that something had to be wrong with her and she was doing what she had been told to do. If something was wrong she was supposed to report it and asked for it to be fixed so she could keep being of use to SIGUARD.
Elsa was offering up the job again, saying that she could easily buy Roxana from her contact. The other girl really did not understand just how entwined Roxana's life was with SIGUARD. "It's still not that simple. Yes, you can buy my contact for a time being but in the end they are always going to be the ones that own me. My life belong to them, it has since the day I was born. No, since the day I was conceived and allowed to develop in my mother womb. I'm a Stix and we always work for SIGUARD. We are..." Roxana started to explain but then stopped.
She could not say anymore on the matter, she was not allowed to. She was already making her thoughts go back to what it was they were doing her and possibly asking Elsa a few questions on the problem she was having. Elsa spoke of how it was tempting for her to just be done with Roxana but also revealed that she would of have to be done with a lot of other people then as well. Roxana didn't say anything about it, even if she disagreed with the whole lying thing. Elsa had not asked so she didn’t tell, but she still accepted that she was in the wrong and made a note to just let Elsa know all the time about whoever she slept with, if she ever slept with someone again.
"In any case, we are in." Roxana said, refocusing on the task at hand. She still didn't know completely why Elsa had brought her here with her but she followed the other girl all the same. Falling silent as she tried to just stay focused on what it was what they were doing and not what confusion was going on in her head.
Roxana was one of those people who learned best by punishment and yes praise. Punishment just seemed to be what she got more often, which just meant she would work that much harder to get that occasional praise. "I'm not. I learn better with pain and I need to go through rehabilitation if I'm to hope of getting control over what is wrong with me." Roxana said. She was convincing that something had to be wrong with her and she was doing what she had been told to do. If something was wrong she was supposed to report it and asked for it to be fixed so she could keep being of use to SIGUARD.
Elsa was offering up the job again, saying that she could easily buy Roxana from her contact. The other girl really did not understand just how entwined Roxana's life was with SIGUARD. "It's still not that simple. Yes, you can buy my contact for a time being but in the end they are always going to be the ones that own me. My life belong to them, it has since the day I was born. No, since the day I was conceived and allowed to develop in my mother womb. I'm a Stix and we always work for SIGUARD. We are..." Roxana started to explain but then stopped.
She could not say anymore on the matter, she was not allowed to. She was already making her thoughts go back to what it was they were doing her and possibly asking Elsa a few questions on the problem she was having. Elsa spoke of how it was tempting for her to just be done with Roxana but also revealed that she would of have to be done with a lot of other people then as well. Roxana didn't say anything about it, even if she disagreed with the whole lying thing. Elsa had not asked so she didn’t tell, but she still accepted that she was in the wrong and made a note to just let Elsa know all the time about whoever she slept with, if she ever slept with someone again.
"In any case, we are in." Roxana said, refocusing on the task at hand. She still didn't know completely why Elsa had brought her here with her but she followed the other girl all the same. Falling silent as she tried to just stay focused on what it was what they were doing and not what confusion was going on in her head.