Digging a Little Deeper

[Alexandra Lawson]

Alex had never considered herself a reasonable candidate for therapy.  She didn't have daddy issues, hadn't come from a broken home, wasn't suffering from depression and she generally thought she had figured out as much of this 'life' thing as could be expected given her age.  She supposed she understood, considering the trauma she'd endured fairly recently, why she was sitting on the couch facing Michelle Horowitz .

As the days progressed and the night that sent Alex to the hospital became more distant of a memory, the diminutive redhead had grown stronger.  When she was initially referred to Ms. Horowitz Alex was still suffering from the lingering effects of the traumatic event.  Slowly but surely, through the astute work of her appointed therapist as well as the tireless presence of her friends and family, Alex began to come around.  She still had moments when she would drift back to that fateful evening and the fears that remained but, on the whole, she was told she was managing nicely.

Why she was still here was starting to become somewhat of a mystery to Alex.

"I guess I'm a little... uncertain."  Alex admitted.  Her brow furrowed with curiosity.  She was referring to her status as a member of a band, something she'd never thought was possible.  Her natural inclination to fade into the background in hopes of not being singled out was a detriment to the very concept of fronting a band on any level.  She always attributed it to mere stage fright.  She wasn't used to having the spotlight on her and the idea of it made her nervous.  Surely that's all it was, right?  There couldn't be anything deeper to the story.  "But... what does that have to do with my sisters?"

[Michelle Horowitz]

Despite the natural need and want to keep herself at a professional cold level, she was proud of how Alex was progressing in her development after the attack against her, certainly she had recovered rather well from the attack and her scars have healed up remarkably well, to the point where she can’t even tell where it was to begin with, however, emotional scars? Yes, that would prove a much harder scar to heal and some people that walked into Michelle’s office. Simply wasn’t capable of getting over it and they let what happened to destroy them internally


Fortunately, Alexandra was stronger than she gave herself credit for and with a little work she seemed to be recovering quite well from the incident. However,It had become clear to Michelle that there was a lot of issues in her, especially concerning her self-esteem and naturally Michelle did have a theory about that….


Michelle leaned down a litlle as she spoke from her desk “It’s a common trait of any younger sister, Alex. Anna was the eldest and the more dominant personality. Which forced you into a beta meek role, from a very young age. So when you’re forced into a position where you have to be something of a dominate personality. You’re naturally uncomfortable and shy… Tell me, growing up. How was Anna to you? 

[Alexandra Lawson]

Alex's brow furrowed as she listened to her therapist talk. There was a certain degree of truth that came with Ms. Horowitz's words. Alex glanced down to her hands which had been resting in her lap. Slowly her fingers began to fidget nervously with one another. They quickly started to move seemingly of their own volition as Alex let the thoughts of her older sisters and childhood rattle around in her mind. "Yes." Alex agreed. "Anna and Abby are both... successful." Another frown came with that response. Her sisters had gone on to bigger and better things. One of them was part of the legal team for Conner Industries, of all things. How could Alex not have a complex?

The second part of the question had Alex struggling to force out an answer. It wasn't much of a secret that the Lawson girls were a close, tight knit bunch, even if Alex was the baby. "All of my sisters were great. We all still get along." Alex replied with a faint shrug of her shoulders. "We don't see each other as much as we'd like anymore but that's growing up, right?"