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[Roxana Strix]

Roxana was well aware of everyone that was on this trip, those that were a part of the school, and even those who were just 'working' for the school in terms of running the ship. She knew all of the names and a little bit of information. She had to know all of what she did in order for her targets to be safe. That was the norm; however she had been given approval to not worry about them. To not even think about them at all, but that was easier said than done. If it had been given to her as an order she figured she could have followed it better, but it had not.

So instead she did things out of habit and then would force herself to do something that didn't involve her work. Like at the very moment she had gone off to one of the many lounges on the ship, tucked away inside, and relaxing on a very comfortable chair as she sketched in her sketch book. The sketching was one that she felt fit their location and her own inner turmoil. The image of a hand that was breaching raging water, reaching up for anything. It was pretty dark considering that meant the person was drowning and doing everything in their power to claw for the surface.

She didn't sketch the body however, just the hand with a little bit of the arm reaching out of the raging sea. It was perfect for the setting and her state of mind and possibly emotions, in her opinion. It was also something that was for herself and didn't have to deal with work, keeping her attention except for the times when she was periodically look up and around the room to see who was in there. It was only when she spotted Felix walk into the room that she closed up her sketch book and started to gather her things to get up and leave.

The only problem was that the way Felix had come in was the only way out of the room. She had never actually talked to the boy before, and that was by choice. Now she just proceeded towards the door, figuring he was not here for her anyways. She would have to walk past him, but perhaps he would not notice her. That was her hope.

((Tag:Felix Nicholas))

[Felix Nicholas]

The party atmosphere had been none stop from the moment the ship cast off, and while Felix was normally the kind of guy who could keep momentum in such a highly strung hectic atmosphere, he was beginning to miss the quiet. Back at the Academy despite being a fairly social creature Felix still enjoyed the time he spent alone, solitary, time he normally spent in he Academy's radio office. Without his sanctum to disappear off to on the ship however, and with most of the sea fearers on board in the wilder swing of things, when he was in the mood for a calmer environment it was a struggle to locate.
Felix had perhaps however found a respite from the chaos in one of the ship's louges, a place of coffee coloured furniture and cream walls, a wooden bar distributing speciality coffees and tea as opposed to brightly coloured party drinks; It was a breath of fresh air. He gently pushed the door open, scanning the area with a quick glance, a relieved smile on his face at finally finding somewhere on board that wasn't full of some form of partying revellers. The lounge was quite empty, a few students who also favoured a calmer atmosphere taking up resistance, reading books or typing away on laptops. One girl however caught Felix's eye as he hovered near the doorway, her sudden movement catching his attention; She was packing up her items at a hurried pace, as though she couldn't get out of the room fast enough.

Felix knew her. Well, he didn't know her personally; Roxana Strix was who he'd always supposed was Elsa's unofficial bodyguard.
She was a member of the school's security team, but spent the majority of her time in the Bellefonte's company. Now, Felix didn't have anything against her, and the pair of them hadn't so much as spoken to each other in their entire time at the academy... So the radio host couldn't quite understand why each time he seemed to come into a room she was in, or walking down a corridor she was walking down, she made a hasty exit or diverted her direction so that she avoided him completely. At first he'd waved the concerns away, thinking that he was just being a little paranoid; But recently it had started to become more obvious, Roxana's deliberate avoidance of him. He furrowed his brow a moment as he watched her pack up, not even glancing at him as she hurriedly made her way towards him; Perhaps it was about time he questioned her about it... And now was as good a time as any.

"... Hey, Roxana, isn't it?" He spoke brightly, stepping in front her quickly to block her way out, casting her a friendly smile. "Mind if I... Buy you a coffee? I want to talk to you about something."

[Roxana Strix]

Roxana certainly knew more about the boy then he knew about her, and that was how it was always going to be. That was how it needed to be. In fact, Roxana wanted it to be that they would always just hear of one another but not actually deal with one another. There was just too much confusion and actual dislike there. Not that Roxana saw him as a bad guy or anything. He was just a liability and something that Rox feared would damage Elsa...or change her. In any case, all scenarios were bad in Roxana's head when it came to Elsa and Felix interacting. She did everything in her power to avoid the other boy so she would not get completely mixed up in it.

However; Felix apparently had other plans and this time as he called her name. It came out uncertain, as if he was not even sure of her name. Was that on purpose or was he actually unsure of her name after the things she had done for this school and for Elsa? Roxana knew she could have ignored Felix; pretend that she didn't hear him. Yet, the room was relatively silent so it would have been near impossible for her to not have heard him considering she didn't have headphones in. He even made sure to step in front of her, causing her to stop.

Rox didn't say anything at first. She just looked at him and his friendly smile as words of wanting to by her a coffee and if they could talk about something. What could that something be? Was it going to be the whole super obvious 'do you not like me?' or something along those lines. There was only one way to find out, unfortunately. "That would be acceptable." Roxana said in her usual simple tone as she then moved to where they could get drinks. "I take it black." Roxana informed him, but didn't really know if she was going to actually drink the drink or not. She did want to get right to the point of things. "What is it that you want to talk about?" Roxana asked, soon after letting him know how she took her coffee.

[Felix Nicholas]

Although Felix knew little about Roxana on a personal level, he did know her position at the Academy and the things she had done in order to keep the school and it's students and staff alike protected and unharmed. This of course earned the woman an extensive level of respect from the radio host, and even though their interactions had been next to nothing he had always seen her as an essential aspect of the Academy and of Elsa's life.
Even though Roxana's duty covered all students and staff, she and Elsa were never too far from one another. Felix had assumed that because of this close bond that Elsa had selected her as some kind of unspoken personal bodyguard, as well as her friend. Felix had seen no reason to question Roxana, her motivations or her opinions pior since as far as he was aware she was a strong, protective, and decent human being; She was a good person for Elsa to have so close to her.
While overall his thoughts on the woman hadn't shifted from his admiration and respect, her clear avoidance of him had begun to raise questions. Due to these actions increasing since he and Elsa had... Well. Began their... For the lack of a better word, Relationship, Felix could only assume that Elsa was the reason for Roxana's avoidance of him; She was after all the factor that linked them both.

"Black?" Felix spoke in polite response, before following her to the bar and giving the woman a nod, turning his attention to the bartender. He quickly ordered one black coffee and a mocha for himself, before shifting his gaze back to Roxana, blinking a moment; She was quite blunt, and clearly wanted to get straight to the point. Felix's brow furrowed slightly with concern; She clearly didn't want to be in his presence any longer then she had to be. "... I want to talk about Elsa," He replied gently, still smiling in a friendly manner, deciding that bringing the Bellefonte up right away was perhaps going to be the best tactic here. He nodded again to the bartender as their drinks were presented on the counter, pulling out his wallet from his pocket and handing over the price of the drinks, before replacing his wallet and taking the beverages in hand. "... Can we sit down?" He questioned, keeping his voice light hearted; He didn't want her to think this was going to be some kind of interrogation. He nodded towards an empty table by a large porthole, which provided a stunning view of the seemingly endless blue ocean.

[Roxana Strix]

Roxana did spend a lot of time in Elsa's company or in Ellen's but Ellen seemed to be more into her own things so it ended up being Elsa. Especially because Elsa seemed to always have some kind of task for Roxana to perform, no matter how simple Roxana viewed it. She still did it because well she did work for the school, even if she worked from someone much bigger than the school in the larger scheme of things. Not that Felix knew or ever needed to know any of that. Roxana figured Elsa was smart enough to not share such a thing with the guy, no matter what.

She just hoped Elsa remained that 'smart' the more her relationship with Felix was going to go potentially. "Yes, means no cream and sugar." Roxana replied back to what came out like a question. She figured that he probably knew what it meant and was just checking to make sure that he had heard right. She was just making sure that he did in fact knew what she meant since again she didn't know much about the boy other than the basic of what she knew about everyone. Well she knew a little bit more then that because of a few reasons, but she was trying to not think about such reasons at the moment.

When Felix said he wanted to talk about Elsa, Roxana could not help but to put up her guard a little more. What did he want to talk about specifically? Rox didn't really want to talk to him about Elsa at all, not even in the slightest of ways. She didn't say anything, just followed him to get their drinks and waited for it. "Yes." Roxana simply replied. While she wanted to get this over and done with, sitting meant that it could potentially be a while, longer than a few minutes. She moved over to the empty table he nodded to, and grabbed a seat. She would wait until he sat down and extended her drink to her before she would speak. "What about Elsa do you want to talk about?" Roxana went ahead and asked, she hoped it was not in a topic that she really, really didn't want to talk about.

[Felix Nicholas]

Aside from her blunt replies, Roxana was being cooperative. Felix had feared that she would simply brush him off, refuse to even address him; Although he still couldn't understand what her reason to do so would be. He had been musing on a potential cause for the girl's behavior since he'd noticed it, and after surmising that the likely reason was Elsa, that left him with few options. Felix hadn't exactly left on even ground with the Bellefonte, and when he uprooted and returned home without so much as a goodbye, he hadn't realised the state he potentially could have left Elsa in. He'd been selfish, frankly quite childish, and self indulgent, oblivious to the chaos back at the Academy. He'd left Elsa when she'd needed him most... And that factor still plagued him, still made him feel guilty. Roxana was her close friend... She must have seen Elsa's decent, seen her desperately trying to prove herself only to push herself to the brink of collapse... And she must have blamed him. Then for Felix return as he had, and in doing so causing such a stir and slipping back into Elsa's life after the pain he'd caused...
He really didn't blame her for disliking him.

Felix nodded in her direction, having known what coffee she'd ordered but having questioned her to be certain, before leading the way to the table once she agreed to sit down. He placed both drinks on the table, gently pushing his companion's closer to her before seating down himself. He cast her his usual friendly smile, before glancing out through the window over the ocean; It was shimmering with dancing rays of sunlight. He was about to comment on it to begin the conversation off on a light hearted tone, but Roxana spoke first before he could. He shifted his gaze back to her, sighing softly, although his smile remained. She really didn't want to be in his company. "... How is she now, since I came back?" He spoke warmly, choosing his words carefully; He didn't want to come right out with asking why she was avoiding him. "... From your point of view." He brought his hot drink to his lips with both hands, gently blowing on it. He also had no idea that Roxana knew about him and Elsa, or that she knew they'd slept together.

[Roxana Strix]

If Roxana was a mind reader, she would have let Felix know just how wrong his thoughts were in regards to why she was avoiding him. To why she was avoiding him. It actually didn't have anything to do with him leaving, in fact that had been a good thing. When he was not around to cause conflict, confusion, and in general to be a weakness. There were other reasons why she didn't want to be around the boy and in fact that she didn't like him. She didn't hate the boy, nothing as extreme like that. Not yet anyways.

Rox just had a problem with him for a lot of reasons, most of which she could not even say to him for several other reasons. His return did cause problems as well, again just bringing back the problems that Roxana has already had with him for most of the same reasons. She remained silent however, keeping her thoughts to herself but let them run free in her mind. She didn't have to worry about her thoughts being read by him and it was oddly really hard to not have her thoughts on the surface. She took the coffee he had gotten for her, but she didn't make any moves to drink it yet. Then came his question, one that she actually had an answer to.

It was going to be a slight deflection but stating that he probably knew how she was doing since he had seen her. However, Felix added on that bit of in her opinion. Roxana didn't want to answer that in her opinion. Without a bias and organization view she supposed she could say that Elsa had been really good, better even since she had Felix had their moment together; but that was built on false feelings. Yet, in actually it was more of that while Elsa was doing better he had considerably messed several things up. Roxana remained silent for a bit before she gave a small shrug. "My point of view is irrelevant to how Elsa has been. That is something you would have to ask or figure out yourself." Roxana responded. There she was not lying and did still deflect the question back to him in a way.

She then took a sip from her coffee then, it coming off as plain instead of bitter. Perhaps the bitter taste was already in her mouth, or that she had just taken to small of a sip and didn't really get the full taste of it. "Was there something else you wanted to talk about? Your first question didn't really seem like what you wanted to ask." Roxana asked and pointed out.

[Felix Nicholas]

Felix's theory was to why Roxana was avoiding him felt to him like the only option; She was friends with Elsa, and he had hurt her by leaving so abruptly... That made sense, surely? What else could it possibly be? Then again, maybe it was due to his track record. Felix hasn't exactly had the most positive experiences in regards to previous relationships, especially after what happened with Erika. Perhaps Roxana thought that he was rebounding? Using Elsa to fill the void she maybe supposed Erika's rejection had caused? He wouldn't be surprised if that was the reason, that she feared Elsa being pushed aside if his affections shifted.
Either way, the factor was Elsa, and Felix was determined to try and get to the bottom of it. He had no intention of leaving Elsa Bellefonte, and therefore likely would have to be in Roxana's company again in the future... Best lay all his cards out on the table now, let her know his side; If she chose to believe him or not, that was her own decision... He knew he'd have to still prove himself in order to gain any chance at receiving Roxana's approval.

Felix wasn't used to being blunt, since his natural reaction was to try and slowly talk his way into discussing the problem as gently as possible, to avoid upsetting the other person. He'd heard that Roxana was quite straightforward, although he hadn't expected her to be quite so to the point. She answered his question quickly, pushing it back onto him before expressing her knowledge that his question hadn't been the true issue. He blinked at her, before taking a small sip of his hot beverage, leaving a pause of silence as he selected his next words carefully. "There was, actually," He spoke, putting his drink back down on the table; He stared down into it's swirling depths a moment before looking at Roxana with a concerned gaze. "... Roxana. You're a true friend to Elsa, and for that and everything else you've done I hold a lot of respect for you." He smiled softly, before continuing. "I know you strive to protect the Academy, and to protect Elsa... ... So I understand why you'd feel apprensive of me coming back." He held a hand up a little in defense with a small chuckle. "I have noticed your avoidance of me... It was pretty easy to see. I just... Don't want any more hidden animosity or motivations. It never ends well. So I just want to know exactly what your issues with me are. I'll give you my side, and you can take that as you wish, but know that I'm being completely honest."

[Roxana Strix]

Roxana still didn't want to be around the boy and didn't completely trust herself around him. She was too blunt and would just say things as they were actually were instead of beating around the bush with it. In this case, she knew that she had to be slightly careful because no doubt Felix would talk to Elsa about it. That or Elsa would read her mind possibly and find out about this interaction if Felix was brought up. Not that Roxana really cared of Elsa finding out about this in either situation; Elsa already should have known how Rox felt about Felix. At least for two of the reasons Rox didn't want to boy to be around Elsa.

She already had a feeling why Felix was talking to her, but she didn't really see the point of it since she doubted it was going to change anything. Not that she was being stubborn or anything like that; it was just a fact from what she already knew about the boy. He seemed taken aback by Rox still wanting to get to the point. She just watched him as he took a drink, waiting for him to speak his mind. He did, bringing up that Rox was a true friend to Elsa. Rox didn't know if she would call herself that but she didn't say anything. She still stayed silent as Felix pointed out that he respected her and then went to say what he apparently thought was something that Roxana wanted and his apparent guess as to why she had apprehensions about him coming back.

"I didn't attempt to cover up the fact that I was avoiding you. I wanted you to know so it would be a sort of hint that it would be best to not involve yourself with me. Had I not wanted you to have noticed, you would just not have seen me at all." Roxana pointed out, again being very blunt. She still spoke in her usual tone of voice, no anger, no hater, or really any emotion at all. He wanted to know what was wrong between the two of them. She could tell him some of it, but she was still up in the air if she should. She didn't see the point of it when she figured the boy was here only for one thing. Approval.

"If you are here because you want my approval for you to be around Elsa, you are wasting your time. Elsa would do whatever she likes in the end no matter what I said." Roxana said, picking up her drink then and taking a sip form it. She truly believed that, Elsa had already proven the point. She told her to stay away from Felix and Elsa had done the completely opposite of it every step of the way. Felix didn't need Rox's okay or anything like that to be around Elsa. "Do you still wish to know what my issues with you are, or are you satisfied now and will be on your way?" Roxana asked after another sip.

[Felix Nicholas]

Felix had gone into this discussion fully well assuming there would be and mentally preparing himself for a few harsh words or comments; After all, he'd already come to the conclusion that Roxana didn't favour him, although he was still unsure as to why. He had surmised a few scenarios, come up with a few reasons as to why she wouldn't think of him in the best light and it all came down to Elsa Bellefonte.
He was certain his reasons had to be the ones for Roxana's disapproval and avoidance of him; He couldn't work out why else she wouldn't want him around Elsa, if it wasn't the fact that maybe she believed he would hurt her again. While he had been prepared
for a sharp, cruel tongue, he hadn't been prepared for her blunt, seemingly emotionless responses. Roxana was perhaps trying to keep her emotions in check, in which case Felix was a touch surprised that whatever he had done would warrant such a level of hatred that it needed to be contained; Or, it was simply the way she was. She had always seemed the stern, silent type to him, although he didn't like to place pre judgements on anyone pior to spending time with them.

He blinked at the female as she attempted to openly avoiding him in the hope he'd catch her drift and give her the same treatment; This produced a saddened smile on the radio host's lips, and he slowly lifted the drink back to his mouth and took another sip as she went on. Once he had, he sighed softly. "Well, that's me, I'm afraid... Someone avoids me and I want to find out why," He smiled light heartedly, although he was a touch hurt by her actions. If she had such a problem with him, why not come to him in the first place? Get it sorted?
He fell silent again as she spoke of him wanting her approval, and although yes that was something he would be pleased to have, that wasn't the only reason for this. Elsa had been through enough, and frankly Felix didn't want any animosity in her life, not when she was fighting so hard to return to the woman she had been. Perhaps he wouldn't agree with Roxana's reasons, maybe he would, but at the very least it needed to be out in the open.

"... Yes, I would like that very much," He spoke softly, giving the female a smile and a small nod. "At the very least, Roxana, I want to get this out in the open. Whatever your reasons are for disliking me, I want to take them into consideration and attempt to fix them. Elsa... Means the world to me. So I want as little animosity in her life as possible."

[Roxana Strix]

She was keeping her emotions in check, but most of that was because it was what she was used to. Rox didn't really show a lot of emotions, she didn't really feel a lot of emotion towards things or about things that often. The most she tended to ever really feel came from looking at art or working on it, but there were those rare moments when she would get them from people. She had gotten those...things one could call feelings from certain people. One of whom was the topic of this conversation, a conversation that Roxana wanted to be done and over with already.

Why was Felix instant upon them talking? Did he think there would be any good that would come from it? She could see that her words had hurt him on some level, yet he was still sticking around. Perhaps it was because she was going easy one him and that was only because she knew how Elsa thought she felt about Felix. She didn't want Elsa to get upset at her for hurting the boy...or perhaps that was just what she wanted. The thought floated around in Roxana's mind as she expected Felix to get up and leave now. However, he was still sitting there and asking for her to tell him what her problem was with him, and it just...angered Roxana. Well, perhaps anger was not the right word.

Roxana was frustrated with him and how he seemed like he wanted her to break him. She could not tell him everything; some was not hers to tell. She could however tell him things that just were solely on her for the most part. She opened her mouth to answer the question but then he was speaking again, the last bit of his words actually did anger Rox this time. "You have no right to claim such a thing. Don't dare to ever say that around me again." Roxana said, the usual emotionless tone in her voice left for a moment, replaced by a warning, not a threat as cold blue eyes glared at him for a moment.

"You wanted her sister; Erika. When you could not have her you started to spend time around Elsa and made her..." Roxana started to say before stopping. She could not go to deep into that territory of information. "You are weakness, you are weak, and you are not good for her." Roxana said, her tone was still cold and with that small hint of anger. She then sat back in her chair, reaching out to take a sip of her drink, and she just simply calmed down. Rox knew better than to let herself remain out of a calm state, even if that level of anger was held back as well. She had barely touched on what her actual anger was like, that was just a taste.

[Felix Nicholas]

Felix could practically feel her desire to leave the conversation ebbing from her every motion, from the manner in which her eyes met him; He couldn't read her beyond that, her grasp on whatever emotions or thoughts were going through her stronger then Felix could have managed in her situation. She really didn't want to be having this conversation... And honestly, neither did he. But if he was going to grow and become the more mature person he felt he'd grown into, he needed to face unsavoury issues that others held against him. He needed to confront these, find a way to improve on them, and grow... For his own benefit, as well as the benefit of those he held dear to his heart.
He wasn't sure if this discussion was going to end well or not, and frankly he was leaning more towards the not. He watched her carefully, awaiting her reply; It came, harsh, cold, emotionless but at the same time holding a shake of what he could only assume was anger. Felix's eyes widened, and for a moment be blinked at the female in disbelief at her sharp tone; He couldn't understand why his words would be met so harshly- Oh. His expression grimaced at his own stupidity.
He was the one who'd caused animosity in her life, and here he was claiming that's not what he wanted, like he hadn't caused it in the first place.

"I'm sorry, those were poor words to choose, I didn't mean-" He began hurriedly, only to fall silent at Roxana's next few sentences. despite knowing basically what was coming, that didn't make her cutting remarks hurt any less. He took them however quietly, watching her until she paused and took her drink in hand, sipping it calmly as though she hadn't just spoken in such a harsh and cold manner.

Felix was momentarily stunned, although he felt he deserved every hit she had to give to him; He bowed his head, his gaze sipping downwards to the drink in his hand. He clutched the beverage tightly, until the heat from the drink began to hurt his hands; He then closed his eyes, before speaking, his voice calm, but the hurt was evident in each word he spoke.
"... I understand," He replied softly, his gaze remaining focused on the mottled swirl of foam and chocolate infused coffee. "Believe me, I know exactly why you'd dislike me for what I did. I hate myself for it too, if that's any conciliation... I was an idiot. A stupid, insensitive kid too focused on my own needs to see what was happening right in front of me." He slowly looked up, risking meeting Roxana's stare again. "So you know. Yes, I wanted Erika. She was my best friend, still is, and I care about her to this day. but if you think I'm only interested in Elsa because Erika didn't return my feelings, you couldn't be more wrong."
He fell quiet again. Likely he was only going to gain further inflicts from her sharp tongue, but he had to lay it all out on the table while he could. "I'm not a man to fall for someone because they're attractive, or because they look like someone I used to love. Elsa is... She's so unlike Erika. Her goals, her pressures, her personality... Even the way she smiles. I was a stupid kid for not seeing it when I should have, for running away. I don't know what weight this has to you, but I have no intention of ever leaving her like that again. If she... If she wants me, if she doesn't want me... I'm going to be there for her, I'm going to support her. She deserves that much from me, regardless of what happens between us." He could feel himself becoming more emotional with each passing word, so he pulled back, taking a deep breath and sighing. "...I will not be what hurt her again."

[Roxana Strix]

Roxana was still going easy on the boy, yet she didn't know how long that would last. Well, honestly she was not that worried. She had training for years and knew how to keep herself in check in the worst situation. Even if she did start to lose herself, she knew ways of getting herself back to a level state. She merely could not hold herself back completely when Felix dared to say 'Elsa meant the world to him. Rox didn't want to hear that, she didn't believe it, and she didn't think someone like Felix had the right to say it. No, he was not worthy.

He made his choice back then and because of it, Rox didn't want to hear the words he had to say. She listened to them, of course. Not out of respect but for the fact that every person had the right to say their point of view on the matter. "I don't think you really do." Rox said, in a simple tone as a reply to Felix saying that he understood. No, he still did not really get why she didn't like him based off what he was saying. He only seemed to get part of it but and the was the bit of what she had just told him. Yet, Rox still didn't think that he was actually getting it.

"I didn't say that was the only reason. You might think you are not a man who just falls in love with looks, but it plays a part in it even if you like to think that it does not." Roxana added, still keeping her voice level and with no emotions. His words, they just were keeping that anger there. It really did anger Roxana to hear him say those things, as if he had a right. How dare he think that he was good enough, that he really got Elsa, or even that he was right for her. If Elsa had not...well Rox would have treated him differently than she was now. She would not have killed him, but injuring the boy was not out of the realm of possibilities.

"You will and you already have." Roxana said in response to Felix's last words. She sipped at her coffee, looking around the room for a moment before her blue eyes looked back to the boy sitting across from her. It would have been so easy, so easy to do...things that she should not do. Things that she should not have wanted to do but he was a weakness, he was weak, and Rox didn't like him. "I won't even bother telling you to stay away from her. It's not my place and it's not like either of you would listen. So, are we done here?" Roxana asked. She told Elsa before to stay away from the guy and she obviously had not listened.

With how Felix was, she doubted he would listen as well, and it was not her place to try and keep them apart. It had not been in her orders yet and very possibly she would be free from this work and it would be someone’s else problem.

[Felix Nicholas]

Despite her overall calm demeanour, Felix could almost sense the anger boiling underneath her surface. She clearly disliked him to a far greater extent then he'd first assumed, to a degree that was partly unsettling him. He had made some terrible mistakes in his time, all he regretted with every fibre of his being... He wasn't a bad man... But then again, maybe he was. Despite his better judgement he'd abandoned Elsa, left the Academy, wanting to settle his own need for recovery, his own desire to heal after the trumas of the previous year. Yes... That did make him a bad person to some degree; He'd always prided himself on putting those he cared for before his own needs, and the one time he gave in it resulted in utter chaos for someone so very dear to him. Roxana had every right to be angry at him, to think he was weakness... After all, he had given in to himself despite his own resovle. If he hadn't left, Elsa wouldn't have been the mess he'd found that day in the courtyard... She'd have been well, she'd have been safe. Yes she may be on her way to recovery now, but she shouldn't have had to go through all of that in the first place. It was his fault.

Roxana, as he'd expected, replied with the same cutting tone she'd used before, sharp and emotionless. She was keeping what feelings were writhing inside her to herself, leaving Felix without much to go on beyond her actual words. She didn't think he understood, and was now stating that him liking Erika previously was a part of his current attraction for her twin. For the first time in the conversation, the radio host felt a harsher flare of hurt; As much as he felt he deserved the majority of verbal hits she was making against him, that one he couldn't have disagreed with more. If there was one thing he was certain of, it was that his emotions were not some kind of transfer from her twin, regardless of their physical similarities. To Felix, they even looked different to each other, and he couldn't understand how he'd ever mistaken the two. Even with Elsa's hair wavy and curled, Felix could pick her out from an entire crowd of Erikas without a moment's hesitation.
Elsa had also read his mind on more then one occasion, with Felix allowing her full access to the recesses of his mind; Did Roxana really think Elsa would have done what she had with him if she'd seen such a notion that she was some kind of replacement for Erika? It's not like he could hide his thoughts or feelings from her, not that he would want to.

You will and you already have.

"... I'm sorry, I understand your reasons for hating me, I'm assuming you think I'm going to abandon her all over again," He spoke softly, trying to best to remain understanding; Roxana was only acting as he would have done in the same position; She was only defending and looking out for her friend. "You say I'm weak. You think I'll lose interest, based on what happened with Erika... At least, that's what I'm guessing here. Again, I don't know how much my words mean to you, but I do not have it within my capability as I am now to do such a thing. I have made mistakes, yes, but unlike someone who is weak I have grown and attempted to fix the parts of me I hate..." He trailed off with a sigh, averting his gaze to the ocean; He hadn't expected this to hurt as much as it was. Maybe because out of everyone he'd connected with since returning, Roxana was the first one to actually really hit back at him for what he'd done; Deep down, perhaps this was something he'd needed.

"I'm stronger then you think, Roxana. I'll prove that, to Elsa. I'll give my all, I'll give her everything I can give. I won't stop supporting her, even if she doesn't want to be with me romantically. I won't rest. I won't give up." He then looked back to her, with more resolve in his eyes then perhaps he'd held for a long time. "With or without your approval, Roxana, Elsa can take anything she needs from me. I don't want anything in return. Her being strong and well is all I'm striving for, although I doubt you believe me." He then lowered his gaze, before nodding slowly. "... So I don't see the point in keeping you any longer. I'm sorry if I've unsettled your holiday, this wasn't what I wanted."

[Roxana Strix]

Roxana could still tell that Felix was not getting it, but she didn't expect her would get it unless she spelled it out for him. He was that kind of boy that the way he thought, talked, and behaved practically screamed that he would not get it. Roxana felt like screaming, well no she didn't actually feel like doing that. She didn't really yell, it didn't seem something that was necessary to do in most situations. Speaking in a louder tone did sometimes help but Roxana felt that in this situation speaking in a level tone was the best way to go easy on the boy.

It was the best way to try to not be mean to someone that Elsa...maybe liked. Well, it was not a maybe but because of what Elsa had told her, Rox was not going to ever fully believe that it was genuine for either of them. Never. Roxana knew of most of what Felix and Elsa had done. She even knew what the two of them had been up to when they were not around each other. Roxana sure was keeping a close eye on Elsa but she had been keeping an eye on Felix because she had a feeling all of this was going to happen. She hated being right when it came to this sort of thing, but SIGUARD would have easily guessed it as well.

"You assume wrong and that means that you don't understand my reasons for my 'hating' you." Roxana replied back. She even lifted her hands up to do air quotes around the word hating. He really didn't get it. Roxana actually felt a little sick for having to deal with someone like this when they were not her target. Someone who just...she could practically guess how he was thinking based on what he was saying and she just wanted to punch him. He was a fool and yet somehow Elsa and him were sort of a thing. "You are weak and I never said that you would lose interest in her. By how you are speaking you still don't get it. You still clearly are weak and have not gotten any stronger since the last time you were here." Roxana said, then taking the last sip of her drink.

She shook her head at his words about being stronger then he thought and let out a scoff when he said how he was going to prove it. He was a fool. A fool that Rox could do nothing to stop because of her friendship with Elsa. That was the only thing saving the boy right now; because of Elsa Roxana was not letting the side that could break a man's will and make him cry, out. "As I told you before, Elsa will do what she likes no matter what I say in the end. My approval means nothing and as you currently are, you will never get it." Roxana said, now moving to stand up. She could feel herself getting to that limit but she could hold out a bit longer if she really needed to.

Rox then leaned forward a little bit, only a hint of a darker side of her coming out as she looked at the boy. "I didn't want you to come back." Rox said, her tone even colder than it had been before. With that said she collected her sketch book once more, picked up her trash, and started to walk away from the table. "Have a good rest of your day." Roxana said as she headed out. She didn't want the boy to have a bad day, she just wanted him to stay out of Elsa Bellefonte's life but she already had a feeling how that would go.