Im Struggling

[Dr. Josef Eisenheim]

I thought I might as well tell you all why Im behind on my posts, and why im just struggling in general. This needs a kinda long explination, so sorry for the kinda long post <3

So, beginning of last year, I was diagnosed with something called IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) which basically gives me extreme stomach cramps, back ache, constipation and sometimes diahorrea. This, personally for me, is caused by lactose (the sugar found in milk) and stress/nerves. This is a lot better then it was, and luckily I am not able to eat more. But still this is hard to handle even with medication, so im off school alot, and am behind on my course work. Which is stressful enough.

Then, not long after I was diagnosed with my IBS, i found a hard, solid lump on the side of my right leg below my knee. It took nearly a month and a half on blood tests, x-rays and MRIs before we found out what it was. I had an Osteochondroma, which is a benign tumor. Now, while that doesnt sound to bad, it was very scary at the time, and though there is a less then 1% chance of the tumor turning cancerous, it is a very scary thing to be carrying around.

Now, as this thing grew, it started to put pressure on the tendons and nerve, which ended up causing me pain. This pain grew worse as the tumor grew, and ended up stopping me doing the christmas pantomime, and also stopped me from doing Our House because of the pain. I also am unable to do P.E, which sucks. 

Now, the doctors wanted to remove it, so they arranged for me to have an operation. This took months and months to get a date. At first they said it would be before xmas, then in Febuary, and now, finally I got a date. The 23rd of April. Thats in a weeks time.

And I am fucking terrfied. And the fact that im terrified is setting of my IBS which is making me even more stressed because im in even more pain.

So, Im struggling a little bit, so sorry if Im a little slow with replies, or focus on one char mor ethen others. I really am trying

TL;DR
Big scary operation coming up next saturday, Ink is terrified and is struggling to be brave.

[Puppy *]

Hey, no need to apologize. You've got real life things going on, no one here is going to worry about posts and threads with all that. You just focus on getting through everything. We're here for you if you need anything (within reason, you don't get the soul of my first born son or anything like that), just let us know! Good luck, Ink. We're all pulling for you.

- Pup

[Lister D. Reynolds]

Don't worry dude, if you need to talk you know where to find us (Even if you just want to talk about musicals)

[Mel *]

I LOVE YOU AND DON'T WORRY BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I'LL MISS YOU AND FEEL SUPER SAD FOR YOU BEING SLOW AND NOT GIVING ME YOUR LOVE, IT'S TOTALLY OKAY. I'LL JUST SIT ALONE IN MY CORNER, BEING SAD AND MAKING HEAVY SIGHING NOISES AS A DESPERATE CRY FOR ATTENTION