Nope. Not It. Nuuuuuup.

[Ethan Parks]

I lay my heart on the line while I write this

*dramatic music playing in the background*

Recently I had a really tough week IRL and online. There was a point where I wanted to give up and getting on BA just really sapped the life out of me. There were people who refused to let that happen, namely Bards (Alexandra Lawson), Robbo (@13diarmaidmccaffrey), Wiz (Nonie Savage), Fate (Fate) and of course, Mel (Mel *). And then I managed to make an almost clean sweep of the OTMs (looking at you Elsa, you streak ruiner) and I was just over the moon because good lord what a validation of my insecurities as a writer and an RPer and a person in general. But truth be told, anxiety and overwhelming sadness doesn't go away simply because the people who love you love you and validation only goes so far. There's this almost...lack of drive for me to look at anything online anymore. And to me, and everyone in my family, that was major.

No, I am not leaving and no this isn't an absence post perse because like hell I would leave the strong ass plots I've got going on and will be going on. And I want to justify my winning the OTMs and work on this like you don't know how but I will have to clean up the threads I currently have so I can really scratch the surface of my characters and realign their chakras or something. Nah I kid, I kid. But in all honesty, I do have to start over because if I don't, I know I will end up hating my characters and dropping them like a hawt pataytah.

So here I am pleadin' witchall to give me your time and patience to rebuild the stuff we have. I hope y'all don't hate me because come on...I won the OTMs. I OWN YOUR SOULS

So please pm me on either my chatango (@nuaiabear) or any of my character accounts if you feel more comfortable there. I do love you all. I mean it. And again this is NOT an absence post.

[Mel *]

We love you Nu and naturally that means wanting the best for you. If a clean slate is what you need, then that is what you should do. And no one is going to hold that against you, silly boo. There is never any rush and you don't ever have to worry about anything. You and your well being always comes first. <3

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[Ryan Alexander]

I know I don't have too many threads with you, but I'm still gonna say it. Take your time. I know how it is to have to re-evaluate your characters, and your mindset in general. As for the anxiety and overwhelming sadness...well I know a thing or two about that as well. If you ever need to bounce ideas, talk, or even just vent, I'm here.

Also, I'd be open to hawt potato, but I'd rather your hawt chars. That's preferable.

[Ethan Parks]

You sweethearts. Both of you. Thank you for understanding.

Oh just as a sidenote, the Addie party thread can go on for as long as anyone is interested in it. So go crazy!

[Logan Diacha]

Part of me feels like I should be sending this from Nonie's account since you tagged it BuuUuUuuuuuUuuuuUuuuuUUUuuuUt.....

Screw it.

Nu you take all the time you need cause everyone needs a break every once in a while, and I totally agree with the blank slate thing (and have considered doing the same thing but a lot of my threads are winding down anyways soooooo yeah).

I've already told you what a fantastic writer/RPer I think you are, so I'm not going to repeat it all. I love your characters and you should take all the time required to get their mojo all groovy (good god did I really just say "groovy?")

Anyways I love you, you majestic mind shego woman. Take care n' don't do anything stuuuupid (or something.).

[Raku]

Nu! *tackle snugs* As always, you know that we all say that RL comes before RP so always do what you got to and and I'm certain everyone will understand *points to above stuff for proofs*. If you ever need to talk or anything like that, you know you can always PM me and I'll do my best to put a smile on your face or do whatever I can to help.

^how I tackle hug you

[Fate]

Nope, nope, everybody else can be nice. I'ma be selfish. 'cuz I want you to stick around and think that this is a genuinely better place with you around. one of the happiest days I've had most of the year was when I got the message "Nu's back."  I get that you need time to figure stuff out; we've talked about it and all that good stuff. I get that you need to reorganize things. But don't think for a second that I'm gonna stop poking you and giving you puppy dog eyes and do all that fun sort of stuff. I didn't stop while you were busy with work and RL for all those months. I didn't stop when we weren't on a site together for years. And I'm not going to stop now.

So I'ma let everyone else be patient, and I'ma keep poking you and bugging you and doing what it takes to get you to wherever makes you both a happy Nu and a Nu we all get to share and love and do all that sort of fun stuff too.



totally didn't realize that was a blood-oath thing, didja? Yer stuck with me now. So yeah, you do your thing. Everyone's gonna be real supportive of you and all that jazz. I'll make sure to keep poking you and bugging you and making sure that you stick around for totally selfish reasons.




^^ selfish reasons.
^^^ also slightly exaggerated, as we are bros and not in love, despite what some people may think/want

And not because I genuinely want you to be all chilled and aligned and happy with your life or any of that nonsense. Nope. Totally selfish. Expect me to be annoying. And clingy. And probably needy. Panicky too, but that's just me and has nothing to do with this. all while you keep working through whatever you need to work through and stuff and junk and yep.

[Selina Taylor]

Heya Nu! My fellow green Disney badass! Take all the time you need!

We will be here! I totally get needing a break and wanting to start over<3 You do whatever you need to to be happy healthy and awesome once again!