Post by Will Spencer on Jan 25, 2016 21:23:10 GMT -6
To: William James Spencer
Bellefonte Academy
Kalispell, Montana
January 25, 2012
Lam-Lam,
That's what I called you isn't it? Because I couldn't say William? I remember that. That and you singing Angel of Music to me when I had nightmares because of the Little Lotte part in it. You weren't very good at singing, but every time I asked, you would be there. You tucked me in every night. You let me sit in your room while you played video games with your mates. I was your favorite, at least from what Ellie and Mum tell me. How do I believe that though? It's been eight years and I don't really know why you haven't even called to ask me how I am, or what's going on in my life, or if Mum and Dad are okay. Do you even care? We're your family.
Do you know what that is William? Family? I can't imagine that you remember what it's like to be loved by so many people. Even if your new family is everything you ever wanted, you don't have Ellie or Lacey. You don't have Mum or Dad. You don't have me. Everyone talks about you as if you've died because it's all memories of when you were young. When you were here. We don't know anything about you except that you're in America and that you have no intentions of coming back. Why'd you even keep your last name? Or your first? You didn't want us, so why'd you keep the name that ties you to us?
I'm angry with you. Furious. But I miss you because you're my family, even if you deny it with every fiber of your being. So I'll leave you with this:
The measure of love is to love without measure.
—attributed to Saint Augustine
Your sister,
Lottie Spencer
Bellefonte Academy
Kalispell, Montana
January 25, 2012
Lam-Lam,
That's what I called you isn't it? Because I couldn't say William? I remember that. That and you singing Angel of Music to me when I had nightmares because of the Little Lotte part in it. You weren't very good at singing, but every time I asked, you would be there. You tucked me in every night. You let me sit in your room while you played video games with your mates. I was your favorite, at least from what Ellie and Mum tell me. How do I believe that though? It's been eight years and I don't really know why you haven't even called to ask me how I am, or what's going on in my life, or if Mum and Dad are okay. Do you even care? We're your family.
Do you know what that is William? Family? I can't imagine that you remember what it's like to be loved by so many people. Even if your new family is everything you ever wanted, you don't have Ellie or Lacey. You don't have Mum or Dad. You don't have me. Everyone talks about you as if you've died because it's all memories of when you were young. When you were here. We don't know anything about you except that you're in America and that you have no intentions of coming back. Why'd you even keep your last name? Or your first? You didn't want us, so why'd you keep the name that ties you to us?
I'm angry with you. Furious. But I miss you because you're my family, even if you deny it with every fiber of your being. So I'll leave you with this:
The measure of love is to love without measure.
—attributed to Saint Augustine
Your sister,
Lottie Spencer
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Charlotte Evangeline Spencer
London, England
Charlotte Evangeline Spencer
London, England