Turning My Back To My Demons

[Vera M. Solway]

For most of the night Vera found herself sound asleep in a bed that had come to be far more comfortable than her own. Sleeping with her girlfriend had been Vera's choice for the past couple of night. While there were nights she had to sleep alone in her own dorm, Vera had gotten so used to Devyn being right there when they slept and now it had almost become some sort of a comfortable habit. There were nights where she had to be assigned a night to stay up, for security purposes then there were nights where she didn't have to worry about anything; This was one of those nights.

Within the middle of the night Vera's dreams had became more... detailed. It caused her to shift in her sleep every now and then, not fully conscious to realize that it may or may not have been bothering her girlfriend. While it started off slow, her body would react to her current dream. A very small flinch here, talking in her sleep there, fingers twitching and eyes reacting underneath her closed eyelids.

*

"Vera Milan Marcello. Don't you dare walk away from me when I'm talking to you." A built man, tall, half Colombian and half African-American, known as an important man among his military family, who had the skin shade of mulatto, light eyes and had a very stern look to him. Almost wishing the younger girl before him would walk away while he was speaking to her. "Are you out of your damn mind, child? It's nearly four in the morning and you're just now stepping inside this house." A younger version of Vera stood before him, somewhere around the age of thirteen, with her back turned to her father. She was more than fed up with him coming at her. "At least I came home tonight. If I woulda known you'd have such a fit, I woulda stayed over Jay's."

He scoffed, his furrowed brows deepened. "You have the nerve, little girl. You have the nerve. When I tell your ass to be in by eleven, you abide by what the hell I tell you! Your mother has been worried sick. You need to start thinking about how your need to act like you don't have common sense is affecting everyone else in this house or I'm going to have to make some moves, and you're not going to be happy. Do you hear me?" Her father gestured his finger towards the ground, "You look at me when I'm talking to you!" Vera turned to face him. Her face had shown a lack of obedience, and even more she felt the need to be angry. But before she say something, a woman came downstairs and entered the living room. She was smaller, petite, beautiful Korean woman, stepped in the middle of them. "Please, Vera. You two. Ray, stop this, you can talk to her about this in the morning. Everyone is asleep; I'm begging yo-"

"No. Mom, no. Dad wanted to make such a big fuckin' deal out of it, then let's make it a big fucking deal! Right? You want to stand here, act all big and bad and control everyone but the moment you can't control me, you blow a fuse. You'll never control me. Ever. How about that?" Her father cocked a brow, "How about you get the hell out of my house. Right now. You want to stay out there with those potheads and guys who make a living off of doing tattoos. You go right ahead! Keep messing your life up!" But before Vera could say another word, the image of her parents slowly faded away until they were completely gone.

The young, confused and scared image of Vera panicked. They were gone.

*

Vera shifted slightly in the bed, still unwoken but talking in her sleep. "...dad."

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn of course did not mind Vera staying the night in her room, even at first deep down she was a little on edge about it. She was fine with sleepovers from time to time but there had been days in a row where her girlfriend would sleep over. Honestly, Devyn didn't have a problem with it now since even before they were going out Dev had promised the other girl that she could come over whenever she wanted so Dev could help keep the bad dreams away. She was still having a little bit of fear from time to time like she did for every relationship.

Yet, she was giving her best and had even allowed Vera to leave a few of her things over in her room. While she was still slightly upset about the earlier events of Vera going off to have photos taken of her by some creepy kid with his creepy invention, she still allowed the girl to stay the night with her. Vera had always slept so well in Devyn's arms and Devyn could not deny that she loved having the girl close, taking in her scent, and just being there to protect her in whatever way she could.

Vera was a strong girl, but Dev could easily see there was some damage and wounds still there. Dev herself still had some. However; Devyn didn't know just how deep those wounds were besides the fact she knew what happened to Vera during the SPECTRE attack and that the girl also no longer had a father like Dev, but that was all she knew. So as Vera lay dreaming, Devyn lay still, sleeping pretty soundly with her arms around her girlfriend as she held her close to her body.

The movement did cause Devyn to stir a little, but not enough to do much due to how slow she was to wake up if she didn't feel there was any danger around. "Shhh...I'm here." Devyn muttered out as she just moved slightly in the bed so Vera knew that she was in fact still there.

[Vera M. Solway]

It had been awhile since her past had come back to haunt her. Maybe every other couple of weeks Vera would get a peace of mind, even some rest. Her nightmares, they hadn't been as bad as last year and that only meant that her body was finally getting used to having a full night's rest. Which wasn't the case for right now. Without being fully conscious to the outside world, her heart started beating faster as her mind tried to process these dreams. While asleep she couldn't hear or feel that Devyn was right next to her. Which wouldn't bode well for the next few moments.

*

"Dtal, could you at least look like you aren't about to vomit?" Yasmin looked over towards her daughter who sat across from her and Ray on their flight to New Mexico. Vera furrowed her brows as she kept her eyes on the horrendous overly priced Delta magazine. "Mom, that's because I am. Going to bootcamp is a stupid idea, this plane ride is way too long. My ass hurts, and who on Earth is going to spend this much money on crappy gear for a flight." She licked her thumb and turned the page, "Not I, that's for damn sure." Her mother shook her head before laying her head back against the seat.

There had been more turbulence than before, which kind of scared Vera. She was never okay with turbulence. It scared the crap out of her. At this point, the seatbelt signs flashed on and the pilot made an announcement about how they'd experience more turbulence than normal. So everyone should sit, fasten their belts, and refrain from wanting to get up. Taking a deep breath, Vera continued to look at the magazine as her and her parents fastened their belts.

It wasn't long until the pilot and co-pilot made another announcement as the unsteady movement of the plane continued. It had gotten to the point where people were starting to panic. Vera could remember the pilot mentioning having to make an emergency landing since they were not too far long from the airport.

*

Vera's heart began to race faster, as she moved a little more in her sleep against Devyn. Muttering and mumbling words of panic but they were still quieter, but just louder than before. Her mind still hadn't grasped that her nightmare was nothing but that, a nightmare and it started affect her, causing her body to build up into a panic as her telekinesis caused multiple items in the bedroom to shake and tremble in the same rhythm as the plane's turbulence in her dream.

*

"Mom! Dad! Oh my god, what the fuck is going on! Holy shit, holy shit!" Every second of their descent, Vera found herself bracing for whatever was bound to happen. Her hands clenching tight against her arm rests as she closed her eyes tightly. Her dad trying to calm them both down but it was hard when everyone else on the flight was in an intense panic. Screams filled the plane, including her mothers until the drop, that had been their last. There was no longer any screams. No emotions, no panic. There was nothing.

*

The young mutant shot straight up out of her sleep as she screamed, enough to wake up anyone around. It caused th stuff in Devyn's room to levitate slightly before slamming back down to the ground. Vera's heart never stopped beating as rapidly as it did, which made it even harder for her to catch her breath. Gasping for what little air her mind made her believe she had left, she frantically crawled over Devyn and stumbled onto the floor, wheezing. Her midnight locks covered her face as she tried to stand up but doubled over, and the flashbacks continued while her body still tried to grasp that she was no longer dreaming. But now having one of her episodes.

[Devyn Solway]

Perhaps it was because Dev had not been in the best of moods before she went to sleep with Vera; due to the whole photo shoot thing, that she was not a very good dream catcher tonight. At least that would have been Devyn's logic behind why Vera had been hit with such bad dreams again. Even if Devyn's power did not actually allow her to keep bad dream away or anything like that, she still liked to think so. Not that any of it mattered as she remained mostly asleep and unaware of the hell her girlfriend was going through in her subconscious. She did start to stir a little more as she could feel Vera moving against her.

It was not until she could feel Vera's heart beating rapidly that Devyn started to wake up a bit more. After all she was lying right against her girlfriend and could feel pretty much everything, not to forget that she could also practically hear Vera's heart beating. Normally her keen sense would not pick up on such a thing unless she was in her other form. However; Vera's heart was pounding just enough that Devyn was able to pick it up due to how close she was to her girlfriend. She let out a yawn as she started to move in order to try and wake herself up a bit more, not yet aware of the danger. Not until Vera’s heart rate picked up, there was some muttering, and things in the room started to shake.

Devyn was not fully awake yet and she was already letting out a low growl as her green eyes turned a few shades darker. Even the shadows in the room started to twitch and something within Devyn felt like there was danger now. Just enough that it helped her wake up at least enough to open up her eyes and see what was going on. Being able to see in the dark always had its benefits in situations like this. "Vera?" Devyn muttered out as she moved just enough to rub at her own eyes. It was then that Vera was quickly sitting up, screaming, and scrambling out of the bed as things lifted up and fell within Devyn's room. Devyn could not help but to let out another growl then, her shows already pulling towards her, but she quickly settled down once her mind and body understood Vera was not doing any of it on purpose.

Dev moved then, quickly getting out of her bed and reaching out to grab a hold of Vera. Yes, she understood that there was a risk that Vera could end up hurting her, but that was nothing new for Dev and she honestly didn't care. "Vera! Vera, calm down. You're safe. I'm right here, look at me." Devyn said. She yelled Vera's name at first to try and get her attention before she started to speak calming, already trying to pull Vera closer to her.

[Vera M. Solway]

Her vision, it was put to the test. It was currently dark in the room and her vision had been blurred. The telekinetic's skin had been moist and she wasn't sure when or why, or what was even happening. There was a pause where she could hear Devyn talking to her, telling her to calm down and she was trying to. It felt like her heart wouldn't stop and she had the wind knocked out of her, which caused her to panic even more and it was making things a lot more difficult for her.

The quick flashbacks were dizzying, not to mention the strain that her subconscious allowed her to go through when her powers acted up far beyond their capability. Vera couldn't see a thing in this darkness and yet her sudden flashback of waking up in the hospital had been blinding. Jumping from awakening from a six month coma to being told that her parents had been dead. To her having a breakdown in her hospital bed from the news. It was one after the other and Vera couldn't handle it. She wanted it to stop. It had to stop. It was too much for her to handle. She couldn't possibly -

"...unngh... s-stop." Vera could feel someone hold onto her. It was Devyn. She knew this feeling, the flashback of her uncle and siblings trying to comfort her when they broke the news to her about their parents. She was six months late. She couldn't understand how. It was her fault. Images of her uncle and siblings trying to comfort her. It was her fault and yet they never blamed her.

Why didn't they blame her?

The raw telekinetic energy tried to lash out again. It flickered at her hair, and at whatever was around, causing a very faint glow from her eyes as she looked up at the familiar voice. While tears were already streaming from her eyes, Vera fought to calm down, to catch her breath, to snap out of it, already completely strained with drops of blood trickling from her nose. Her eyes shut closed as she grunted, she could feel Devyn. "...devyn?" Vera had a hard time grasping her self-control and it hurt even more to force herself to stop, but she did. And by the time she opened her eyes, everything stopped but her body felt as if it had gone through the ringer ten times over. 

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn wished that she could make it all stop for Vera. She could just tell that the girl was going through flashback, reliving some horrible nightmare at the moment. Devyn had gone through it before, she still did from time to time but she mostly had it under control thanks to years of suppressing things. There was nothing she could do for her girlfriend, besides just be there for her, keep a hold of her, and wait for her girlfriend to be able to come out of it herself at least a little bit. Devyn hated it; feeling powerless to stop the pain that Vera was obviously going though as Devyn could see it all due to her night vision.

"It's okay Vera. I'm here. You can get through it." Devyn said, still keeping her calm voice as best as she could as she held onto her girlfriend. She didn't try to restrain her or anything, but just have a hold on her so she would not end up moving around in the dark and end up hurting herself even more. The shadows in the room still moved about, wanting to consume Devyn in order to protect her and deal with the threat. At the same time, Devyn wanted to use her shadows to cover up Vera, to put her in a cold but environment where she would feel that she was being held.

The negative being that it would be dark and cold and warmth and possibly some light was what Vera needed right now. Devyn's hair stood up on the back of her neck for a moment, as she let out another growl; unable to hold it back as she could feel the energy around Vera. She was prepared to take any pain as a result, but the smell of blood had her quickly lifting up her shirt to wipe at Vera's nose. It seemed Vera was coming too, sweating, heart still beating fast, but she was calming down bit by bit as Dev worked at trying to make sure Vera's nose bleed didn't end up on the floor or anything.

"Yeah, it's me babe. It's okay, I'm right here." Devyn assured Vera as she could not help but to lean in a given her girlfriend a kiss. He arms then went around her girlfriend, pulling her in close, not allowing Vera to have a choice on the matter. Sure the shirt was dropped, but Dev didn't mind if Vera got any blood on her. "No one is going to hurt you. So long as I am around I will keep you safe from it all." Devyn whispered as she would run a hand through Vera's hair, just wanting to give Vera a lot of physical contact to let the girl know that she really was safe, that and Dev really only was good at being physical.

[Vera M. Solway]

As she continued to get gain a better grasp on everything, Vera's heart rate was still high but had started to slow down as she tried to catch onto anything that would allow her to breathe. The young woman was panting. She had never gone through an episode so straining, something that allowed to develop out of her control and it was so confusing. She couldn't differentiate the difference between a bad dream and her PTSD causing her flashbacks while she was wide awake. It had never gotten this far and it caused her to go through a great amount of strain.

It was as if she could hear Devyn throughout the entire time and she wasn't too sure as to why but the sound of her voice managed to pull her from going through it anymore. She didn't know what was going on within herself. She didn't know. It didn't feel like her body right now, not the one she was used to. It felt like someone was trying to make her life a living hell, like her own mind and body were trying to be her own worst enemy.

She felt the texture of a shirt being brushed against her nose as it bled. The thought of it, everything, it was so dizzying. It caused her legs to give out as she clenched onto her girlfriend's shirt. Vera started crying as her head stayed against Devyn's, wanting to just, give in, just to lay there and get herself together again. There was no being tough, she couldn't be strong, the telekinetic suddenly felt weak minded - She felt weak in general.

For the longest time, she thought she had fought against this happening again. She was sure she would be alright, she would get through the last few times and everything was going to be okay. Talking to professionals, shoving everything down, it would make it all go away in due time. There was no time to be scared, she couldn't possibly still be haunted. Not Vera.

She could hear Devyn speak to her, about how it was going to be okay. How nothing was going to hurt her. Devyn's comfort was the only thing that managed to keep her sane during this time.

But she was scared, and she was frightened beyond words and at this point she had no idea what to do. She didn't know what to do. So she didn't move from her girlfriend, she just stayed there, strained and did what her body wanted, what it needed.

She cried.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn was still not aware of just how bad it all was for Vera; there was no way for her to know without being able to read minds or Vera tell her. Vera didn't look like she could even talk at the moment; she just looked out of it. Devyn was worried that Vera was going to end up passing out on her, and if that was the case she would suck up a her fear of all things medical related and take her girlfriend to be looked at. That would be what she would do if her basic medical help was not able to help out her girlfriend.

She had a first aid kit, basic things that would help Vera out but she was no TK so she could not fully understand just the level of pain Vera was in. She felt Vera's legs give out on her and made sure to keep a hold of her girlfriend as she clung to her shirt. She could feel Vera shaking and even smell the tears along with the blood. Dev's senses were on high alert but she managed to keep herself calm enough to help Vera calm down as well. It would not have done any good if Dev was losing it too while Vera was already going through hell.

"I got you. You can let it all out, you can be weak around me, and I will still care about you all the same." Devyn whispered as she allowed Vera to cling against her, moving to pick Vera up in a way and bring her up onto the bed. That way the two of them could at least sit down on something comfy while Vera just let it all out. Devyn didn't really know what to say, she just kept holding onto Vera. One hands going through Vera's hair to try and sooth her, while the other rubbed up and down Vera's back. "I'm here for you and I'm not going anywhere." Devyn added.

This was really hard for her, to try and help her girlfriend to feel better with more than just words but she was giving it her best. Part of her wondered if any of this was her fault for being upset with Vera, but she tried to not think about it too much. Instead she moved to try and wipe the tears away from Vera's eyes before she would press her lips softly against Vera's head.

[Vera M. Solway]

"I got you. You can let it all out, you can be weak around me, and I will still care about you all the same."

Now, all she could hear was her. Her voice sounded so calm, so reassuring to someone who just felt so confused, scared, broken with pieces still managing to come apart after Vera was sure she had pieced them together. Vera was weak, so weak and even when she thought she was okay, she wasn't. Devyn's words had caused Vera to open up even more. The mixed girl had tried to muffle her cries as she refused to let go of her girlfriend's shirt but now felt more open to let it out.

While on the bed, Vera refused to let go of her girlfriend. Instead, she burrowed her face further into Devyn's shirt as she tried to calm down. It took a while and nothing hurt more than fighting back fears mixed in with tears. "...I'm so sorry." Was all that she could manage but she wanted Devyn to know that. Vera could have hurt Devyn without realizing it and had it not been for the many years she took to gain control, it could have been serious. Though, Vera was also sorry that Devyn had to deal with this. It was usually something she dealt with alone and it was sick that it had gotten this far.

She still needed help.

Her slender fingers loosened the grip against Devyn's shirt as she remembered to breathe in and out, with her eyes still closed. The feel of those fingers running through her hair and also against her back, the kiss against her head; It helped her calm down, more than she knew. Even while being exhausted, Vera still tried to fight sleep right there and then. She didn't want it to happen again, she wouldn't be able to handle it and was more worried about Devyn having to deal with her than anything. Especially after what happened earlier that day. She couldn't possibly lose herself and the one person she cared for the most all in the same night.

Even though she might have lost the fight, it still took a while before she managed to fall right back to sleep.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn could tell that Vera was still holding back, trying to keep it all together, and not fully apart right there. She understood why someone would want to hold back, she did it herself often but she wanted Vera to feel comfortable enough around her to just let all of her problems go. Of course their relationship was new and while they had been friends for more than a year, it still was something that took time. Vera was grabbing at her shirt still, the one that had some of her blood on it, but Devyn didn't mind. She let Vera hold her as tight as she needed to and she kept rubbing her back while she played with her hair.

"Nothing to be sorry about, bad dreams happen." Devyn assured Vera. She even smiled a little to make sure her voice came out in more of a cheerful and reassuring manner. Devyn honestly could have careless if she got hurt or something in her room broke. What mattered right now was making sure the Vera was okay or was going to be okay. While she was of course still mad at Vera for things that happened earlier on in that day, none of that even mattered right now. Dev wanted to say more to her girlfriend, but she still didn't know the right words. So she opted to stay silent and just keep comforting Vera the way she knew how.

It would take a while, but eventually she could tell that Vera had fallen asleep, likely exhausted herself from the whole event and sleep was what her body needed the most. However; Devyn was not going to be falling asleep anytime soon. She could not; she was on high alert now and wanted to be ready in case something happened again. While she did move so that she could lie down and Vera could lie on top of her, she stayed awake. Devyn would only adjust a little so Vera could lie on her chest and hear her heart beast, which hopefully would do more for keeping Vera calm in case things got crazy then.

Devyn didn't know how many hours past, she just knew that she was awake for all of them with eyes closed that would open at the slightest sound or movement. She was not worried about the lack of sleep due to her odd sleeping schedule she was sure she could get the rest back later. "Waking up or just moving?" Devyn would whisper when Vera started to stir a lot. The sun was already up, Dev could tell by the light peeking in slightly on the sides of her long black curtains.

[Vera M. Solway]

It was as if her dreams were no where to be found. She had been so exhausted, that waking up only made her feel as if her sleep was short lived. Hours may have passed but in reality Vera felt as if it had only been an hour or so. Which may or may not had been a good thing considering what she had just went through. The telekinetic slowly opened her eyes after probably stirring too much for her own good. Her vision was still blurred at that moment and she still felt a bit tired but she was alive, which was more than she could say for a lot of people.

It hadn't really sunk in but she soon managed to realize that she was still laying against Devyn. She took a deep inhale as she simply stared at the space in front of her hazel eyes. "...waking up." She wasn't sure what the sudden wave of emotion came from but she suddenly felt embarrassed, upset, or weak in a way. It also felt like a hangover was trying to linger. She didn't really want to think about last night, at least not now.

She remembered the whole issue about her going out to model a "toy" and then what happened later on was still a bit foggy but she could remember some of it. The feeling left her unpleased with herself and to think that Devyn had dealt with it. It was just... ugh. Trying to sit up and move off of her girlfriend, Vera rubbed her face as she blinked. She was far from actively aware and more so groggy than anything, but the blood stains on Devyn's shirt were more than a wake-up call and noticeable even in the dimmed room. And of course, Vera said the first thing that came to her head, anything was better than having to mention last night. She looked towards Devyn, "...I-uh, I'll wash your shirt when I do my laundry today..."

She slowly but surely moved towards the edge of the bed before attempting at standing up. Vera knew she needed to start her day, shower, or just do something, just anything before the tons of thoughts would flood that head of hers. She wasn't even sure if Devyn was still upset with her or if she still wanted her here. The telekinetic rubbed her arms as her voice sounded less than awake. "Do you care if I take a shower here?"

[Devyn Solway]

"Well, good morning then...or whatever time it is." Devyn said as she gave her girlfriend a small smile before letting out a small yawn. She was pretty sure it was still morning; she had watched the sun come up not too long ago so no way was it afternoon already. Then again, her blinds did their job at keeping out as much light as possible so it could have been midday already and that way why she was able to see some light trying to break into her usual dark or dimly lit room. There were things that Devyn of course had been thinking about while she was laying there and waiting for Vera to wake up.

One of which of course was the whole toy incident and what she planned to do if 'Mr. Tower' didn't handle it himself. She was still mad at Vera about it, but it was not like she was going to say anything to try and start a problem between the two of them. Plus she was a little more concerned about Vera's current condition then she was about the things that were bothering her. "Nah, it's cool. Blood stains anyways and not like it’s that big of a deal." Devyn said as she gave a small shrug. Worse case, she would just throw it out but so long as Vera was her girlfriend she didn't see the need to throw the shirt out.

It could be her go to shirt anytime Vera had a nose bleed. Bad joke? Too soon? Devyn kept it to herself at any rate and watched as Vera sat up and moved away. She didn't say anything at first as she just looked at the girl before moving to go behind her. There was a small moment of hesitation before she slowly would go to slide her arms around Vera's wait, wanting to hold the other girl a little longer and to let her know that everything was alright. "Go ahead, I'm sure you know by now where everything is and you should still have some clean things of your own that you left here if you don't feel like borrowing any of my stuff." Devyn pointed out as she would get to try and place a soft kiss against the side of Vera's neck.

It was true that she had allowed Vera to leave some things in her room; and while those things were all mostly in one corner that Dev said she could have, it was at least a start. Devyn was of course very territorial, especially when it came to her room. So it was a big step to allow someone to leave more than just a toothbrush in her room but she was giving it her best. "Want me to make you anything to eat or get you a drink?" Devyn would ask, her voice in a whisper as she moved her lips to gently kiss Vera's ear.

[Vera M. Solway]

"...morning." She managed to mutter out in response just so it didn't look as if Vera was in a bad mood on purpose. The young woman wasn't really in a bad mood, she was in a very confused place with many mixed emotions and thoughts trying to cloud that head of hers and she didn't like it. Despite not having much sleep, her natural alarm clock could already feel it was morning. But she wasn't sure if she wanted to go by any schedule or routine today.

She wasn't feeling right.

Taking a deep breath, she rubbed her face with both hands this time, then running them through her hair. She would still do Devyn's laundry, because she just felt the need to. It may have been weird but she just wanted to do it. Maybe because she just felt bad?

Vera felt arms wrap around her waist and the kiss against her neck was comforting. It even allowed her mind to be cleared for that second. She slipped her hands over her girlfriend's arms and gave them a slight caress before lifting one of Devyn's hands to plant a kiss on top of it. "Thanks." She really had no idea what she would have done without Devyn. Vera really did appreciate Devyn being there for her. Maybe she'd try to get over the current feeling of being so mentally fucked up in due time.

It was a good thing she reminded Vera because she had almost forget that she still had things left there. The mixed girl closed her eyes gently with a soft smile as she felt her girlfriend's kiss. "No... It's okay." For now she'd be fine and Devyn had done enough. Even though she hesitantly decided against it because she felt as if she was pushing Devyn away, but she slipped away from Dev's hold and headed towards the bathroom. She moved towards the sink and brushed her teeth before stepping into the shower. It was only then that Vera realized she hadn't brought her hair straightener, which would be a pain. Her hair was naturally curly and it took dedication to have it straightened every morning but it was worth it sometimes.

Ideas, thoughts, and emotions flooded her as she showered and it just made it a bit more complicated to have a clear mind. After the shower, she grabbed a towel and dried off before heading back into Devyn's bedroom. She didn't say much of anything then, she just went to get dressed in clothes that she had left over. She didn't even have it in her to fully dry her hair. She just sat on the floor of the bedroom barefooted, in her white t-shirt and light grey denim jeans and thought about something but wasn't too sure how to explain it to Devyn just yet.

She still kind of felt weird about everything. 

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn smiled at her girlfriend when she managed to mutter out a 'morning'. Normally Devyn would have asked how Vera slept, but she knew full well how the other girl had slept and it was probably not a topic that Vera wanted to talk about. She hardly said anything when it was happening and just cried before she passed out. Devyn did wonder what the nightmare had been about and if it was at all her fault. Vera had seen her other form a few times, so maybe she had a nightmare about Devyn eating or killing her, or something crazy like that.

Then again...Vera had clung tightly to her so that likely meant that it had to be something else since Vera didn't pull away from her. Yet, that didn't explain why she felt like Vera was being distant with her right now. Did Vera know about the text or more about what Dev felt about the whole toy incident? At least Vera had not pulled away right away when Devyn had pulled her close and gave her a few kisses to try and help Vera feel better. "No problem." Devyn assured her, watching Vera for a moment as he girlfriend got up and pulled away from her.

While Vera did say she wanted a shower, Dev had expected Vera to stay in her arms a little bit longer. Dev didn't say anything however and just Vera gathering her things and went to the bathroom after assuring Dev that she didn't need anything. Once Vera had gotten in the shower, Devyn just went right ahead and stripped out of her clothing, tossed it onto her dirty pile, and got dressed. She would shower later since she showered last night as she did most nights if she didn't sleep with someone or had been out drinking. She was in the middle of messing with her hair when Vera came out, which had her green eyes focusing on her girlfriend for a moment.

Then she went into the bathroom to get her toothbrush. She did walk back out of the bathroom, brushing her teeth as she looked down at her girlfriend looking defeated on the floor. "Want to talk about it...or anything?" Devyn just went ahead and asked because she didn't know what to do in this kind of situation and didn’t like Vera looking like a sad puppy on her floor and wanted her to feel better.

[Vera M. Solway]

Vera was sure her own nightmares were far more terrifying than Devyn's other form, and that's saying a lot considering that her girlfriend's form was pretty... beastly. Possibly because she had the idea in the back of her mind that Devyn would never hurt her in said form. Yet, her own mind was trying to break her down into smallest of pieces.

She hadn't meant to be distant, not really but she couldn't help it. She had a lot on her mind. While she sat on the floor, she rubbed a lock of her wet hair between two fingers. She could already feel her curls starting to form and wasn't too worried about how it might have looked when it fully dried. She would survive for now.

When Devyn came back out while brushing her teeth, Vera looked up at her. "Would you go on a road trip with me?" Which didn't explain much of anything but she figured it was something. Her eyes were somewhat pleading but if Devyn didn't want to go, she wouldn't force her. "To New Mexico." Her voice lowered, "It's where my parents died..." Furrowing her brows, she looked away. "Where I was supposed to die."

It seemed like the only logical thing to do, as illogical as it sounded. It was clear that therapy wasn't working (had she actually gone to her sessions) and maybe getting out and driving for seventeen hours was a good idea. "I - uh, I don't really know what to do. It's getting worse and I refuse to take meds for my PTSD. I-I just can't and this just sounds like a good idea and you know, it's just the only thing that makes sense to me right now. Dev... I don't know. Fuck. Nothing really makes sense to me right now - but going there, that, that's the only thing that seems to make sense." She shook her head before looking back up at her girlfriend, who probably thought she was crazy. If she did, Vera wouldn't blame her. "Just go with me. Please?" While she visited her parents grave back home in New York every year, she had yet to go back to the crash site. She heard there was still some sort of memorial built near the area.

At this point she didn't know what to do and while she would never admit it, she still wasn't strong enough to deal with it alone.