Never Really Get It Right

[Devyn Solway]

Crossfade a song by the name of Cold was playing in Devyn’s headphones as she headed towards where she knew she would find the dorm monitor at this hour. Guy had told her that she had to talk to the dorm monitor and that she was supposed to talk to Security; along with a few other people, in regards to her leaving campus and just in general the issue with what happened at the library. She had already cleaned up most of the damage that she had done in the library and she had completed all of the paper work that she was supposed to do but there were still a few other things that she had to take care of. For now she was focusing on talking with one of the dorm monitors, not even sure if she was supposed to treat this like a counselor or if she was just supposed to be checking in with Tamara to let the women know about the event.

Guy probably told her or at least someone probably had told her already so Devyn really was not sure. At least Tamara would not have to worry about dealing with Devyn’s drama since Devyn didn’t really plan on saying much. This song is hitting to close to the home. Devyn thought to herself as she listened to the lyrics on her walk, knocking on the door and sliding her hands into her pockets. Leave it to shuffle to know what songs to play in order to fit what was going on your life at the moment. It was like the iPod knew which was creepy since it often happened. Devyn had seen Tamara around before and the woman was hot so that at least made this a little less painful. Devyn still didn’t feel like wasting Tamara’s time with any of this but at least if she did it she could say that it was done and Guy could not scold her about it.

“Take your time, I promise I’m not like bleeding or anything dramatic like that.” Devyn called out as she waited after knocking on the door. She really didn’t want Tamara to rush to the door and it would be all the better if Tamara was not even here.

[Tamara Sulik]

Tamara spent enough time dealing with the students within the south wing, she barely had time to know what was going on outside of the dorms. The south wing was her territory to take care of. And she was really trying her best for everyone in there to be safe. It wasn’t always easy, with teenagers who liked to break the rules for the sake of breaking the rules, but it generally went well. Who cared if they called her a fascist for bringing them back in their room past curfew? They screamed about their liberty being taken away from them but it really was just a question of safety. She didn’t keep them locked in their rooms. And she bet more than a few students managed to sneak out to reach their lover’s room. She didn't really mind, as long as they were inside and safe.

Every now and then, she was told about a student she might have to watch. Guy notified her to keep an eye on Devyn but seemed to either expect Tamara to follow his order blindly or for the girl to explain the situation herself. Either way, Tam wasn’t seeing it happening without someone talking to her first. How was she supposed to look at Devyn Solway if she didn’t even know what she had to be attentive of? She did pull out her file though, to know her better. The name was not exactly unknown to her but even if she could learn what the girl’s power was, it didn’t help understanding what really happened or why she was suddenly someone she needed to keep an eye on. Guy better have more to tell her than just “watch over her”.

She lifted her head from the computer screen when she heard a knock on the door. For once, she wasn’t just running around to make sure everyone behaved. Well, speaking of the devil, here was this Miss Solway in the flesh. “Come over here. You’re Solway, right, Devyn Solway?” she said, standing up from her seat yet gesturing for the girl to come over, which would require for her to sit down at some point. Oh well, the brain didn’t always think logically. “I just received a note about you, I think you are aware of this, right?” Wow, she sounded so... secretary-like. It was kind of weird. She shook that thought of and promised herself not to make it sound so dramatic.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn’s name would be at least known by all the staff that had been working here for a while since she had been at the school for years now. She had mainly a track record of sneaking out past curfew, occasional being caught with empty beer cans or drinks, or being found in the boys dorm past when she should have been. Now her sheet had more listing of her losing control, almost dying twice, have killed members in SPECTRE, having momentarily turned on the people with her at the SPECTRE attack, and the latest was destroying a part of the library. If this had been any other school Devyn probably would have been longed since kicked out of the school or asked to go somewhere else. This was BA however and being a mutant Devyn didn’t really have a place to go besides another mutant school.

Maybe they will end up transferring me. Devyn thought to herself for a moment, actually worried about that. She didn’t want to leave BA because this was the school her dad went to and graduated from and she at least wanted to meet that same end goal as her father. Devyn walked into the room when Tamara told her to come over. Devyn knew Tamara was hot but actually being alone in a room with the women and getting closer to her really conveyed just how attractive the older woman was. “The one and only that I’m aware of.” Devyn responded back to the question as to who she was, moving towards the women to shake her hand. “Miss Sulik, right? Or do you like to go by something else?” Devyn asked, being respectful because if Guy had told her to talk to this woman then she had to at least play her cards carefully at first.

Even if Tamara didn’t end up shaking her hand or if she did, Devyn would grab a seat. She turned her music off, removing her headphones, and then tucking them away in her pocket as she relaxed back in the set. Devyn nodded as Tamara informed her in a question manner about Tamara getting a note on her. “I am, that is why I’m here. It’s mainly because of the library incident.” Devyn responded back, her green eyes gazing over Tamara but her libido seemed to still be in hibernation so she was not have bad thoughts just yet.

[Tamara Sulik]

Devyn was one of these students Tam had to deal with in the past. She wasn’t the one who caused her the most problem but she had to remind her about the curfew or the rules of the school. Minor offenses she had to report but that were generally easy to deal with. Nothing that forced the woman to reassure the girl and try to get control over a situation that clearly was uncontrollable. So when she heard what the girl had done to the library, she could hardly believe it. Devyn never struck to Tam as the kind of person who’d vandalize school property, not like that. And, judging by what punishment she got, Tamara was not the only one to think that.

She kind of felt sorry for the girl despite the fact she knew nothing of the circumstances. Most kids didn't mean to wreak havoc around here. Most of the damages came out of a power growing out of control because of one reason or another. Even though you had to punish them somehow, you couldn’t entirely blame them for it. Tamara had rarely met students who purposefully chose to destroy the school.

Tam nodded as Devyn got her name right. “Miss Sulik’s fine but you can also call me Tamara,” she said. She knew she was supposed to be in position of authority around those kids but it was always a strange thing for the woman to be talked to so formally. Who cared if they called her Tamara instead of Miss Sulik? What mattered was if they did it with a certain respect. And so far, if she got some form of attitude out of the girl, it might very well have to do with her nerves more than because she wanted to be cocky. Tam had seen that enough in the past.

“Yes, that’s what I got from it. Guy... Mister LeGrange, has not given much details though, only said I should keep an eye on you. You care enlightening me?” she asked the girl. Well, at least they were both here for the same reason and not because she wanted to report something going on or whatever. Tam was still not too certain what they wanted her to do here. She wouldn’t mind keeping an eye on Devyn and make sure she was doing okay but it might be best if she knew what signs she should watch for.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn did know Tamara, she had her run-in with the adult women because of the rules that she ended up breaking here and there. She was still respectful for the most part when she was caught and would accept her punishment. She was just naturally respectful to adults once she got past all of her flirting desires. She had not gotten past them with Tamara yet since she had never really gotten the chance to get them all yet out of her head and into the air for Tamara to hear. Devyn's punishment after the whole library things really was not that bad, other than the whole having to be watched when she would go off campus. Not like she would check in with anyone for that part because she went where she wanted to and only if she got caught would she take her punishment or deal with having to be watched when she would go off campus.

Not like Devyn planned on losing control every second of the day. She was depressed and still trying to get out of that dark place, but she had managed to keep control over herself for the most part. She made herself comfortable in the seat, totally trying to not check out Tamara since she was still actively trying to not be such a dog but it was difficult. The curves and everything on Tamara seemed to fall in all the right places. "I'll go with Miss Sulik for now if that is okay." Devyn said, having a habit of going first with the proper names and then when she would get comfortable with an adult she would use nicknames. Unless she didn't know there name then she would give them a nickname and it would pretty much stick. Devyn was already thinking along the lines of calling Tamara a succubus because boy was her body seducing without any effort on Miss Sulik's part.

"Figures LeGuy would say just that." Devyn said with a small chuckle when Tamara revealed that Guy didn't really give her much. Guy seemed to like making Devyn has to do paperwork and actually talk to people. It was probably his way of making sure that Devyn did what she was told; darn that smart trainer of hers. Devyn sighed for a moment before she figured she might as well just give the short version of it all. "My girlfriend. I'm bi by the way. Anyways, my girlfriend broke up with me after I worked so damn hard too...short version, right. So she broke up with me, I didn't take it well and since my power tends to go out of control when I'm feeling a lot of heavy emotions at once I...lost control and went all grr in the library. Did some damage didn't hurt anyone thankfully, and guy put a stop to me." Devyn said, feeling like that had ended up being the long version of it but she had left out all of the details. Well she had almost not left them out but caught herself, not wanting to bore Tamara with teenage drama.

[Tamara Sulik]

Tamara knew her figure might attract a lot of attention. She was not the only beautiful woman in this school. And when working she was making an effort to dress properly. No need to have one of her famous v-neck shirt revealing more than necessary for the students to see. But Tamara was not to the point she would dress like a nun or with clothes twice her size only so they would not see her curves. She definitely had some and they had to deal with it. She wouldn’t be the only woman with curves they would meet in their lives, they better learn to behave. She included the female students even though she mostly thought of the guys there.

She nodded when Devyn chose the formal way to address to her. She didn't mind but it was still a bit weird as they generally jumped on the opportunity of calling her by her name instead of saying Miss Sulik all the time. Apparently, Devyn was more polite than she thought. Not that she believed her to be uncivil but it was something she wasn’t mad for being wrong about.

She raised an eyebrow at the way she named Guy but said nothing. The man had obviously heard worst. She didn’t think it was insulting. She probably should tell Devyn to refer to the head trainer in a more respectful way. But as long as she didn't call him the Hobbit or Grumpy in homage to the dwarf, she didn’t see a problem with it. Besides, she was right, it wasn’t Guy’s kind to give all the information at once. He had his reasons of course and they were generally right.

When Devyn started to explain, Tam saw the end coming before she even said it. Of course, the oh so well known bad breakup. How many students lost it because their feelings were too much for them to control? Some did while they were in love, some did once love was gone. Either way, Devyn will have to toughen up as this wouldn’t be the only loss she’ll experience in life. “I see. So they want me to make sure you’re doing okay and not causing the same damage in here, I imagine? How are you doing, by the way?” she asked. Well, she supposed she could do this without too much of a problem, if that was what they wanted of her. She’ll have to warn the others too that she might cause problems for now because she had trouble controlling her powers.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn was trying not to check out Tamara too much, but it had been a while since she had any action so it was kind of hard not to. Sure not getting any action was a 'by choice' things but that didn't mean that her body had completely shut down on the desires that it practically used as a coping mechanism. Not that Devyn was in a dark place this was when her body wanted it the most but she had been at least doing a good job at keeping her wants in a somewhat dormant state. That didn't stop her mind from thinking all sorts of things or her eyes drifting from time to time. Tamara was not revealing a whole lot but that just left things up to Devyn's imagination. I doubt she is one of those naughty teachers that would risk fooling around students. Devyn told herself as a way to get her green eyes to stay up on Tamara's face which was also still adding to her imagination.

LeGuy was something that Devyn had even called Guy to his face; it was Devyn’s nickname for her trainer. He had yet to make a big fuss about it so Devyn figured that it was alright, but she did recall that she probably should not use it in front of other staff. Too late for that now, so Devyn was just going to have to roll with it. Tamara didn't say anything about it so she figured it was fine but did make a mental note to try and use non-nicknames. Devyn focused on explain the whole sum of the story and tried to keep it short. She really didn't like talking about herself if she could help it. She preferred to talk about what she could do to fix things or about other people and not herself. Plus she had a feeling she would already know what someone would say so didn't want to waste her breath. So when Tamara asked how she was doing, she planned on being dishonest even if she didn't like to with most people.

"I'm assuming so. I have not hurt anyone recently...but I do need a new mirror in my bathroom and for my bedroom window to be fixed." Devyn responded to the first part of Tamara’s question honestly since she didn't want Tam feeling the need to watch her that much. The only one really in danger of Devyn was Devyn herself or someone who thought it was a good idea to poke at a wounded animal. Yet people already did a good job at knowing better then to mess with her when she was happy so they would be fools to mess with her in this state. Devyn wanted to just pretend that she didn't hear the later question but knew that would run the risk of Tamara asking again or trying to get more information out of her. "I'm fine." Devyn said with a simple shrug, it was a lie but she did try to make it seem convincing with a whole 'it's not a big deal' style attitude. "How are you doing?" Devyn asked, also throwing that little subject change to help avoid talking about herself.

[Tamara Sulik]

Devyn was right on one thing, Tamara was not one to fool around with students. There was way too much at risk there and the last thing she wanted was to lose everything over something that would clearly not be worth it. But when it came to desires and the need to satisfy those desires, she knew a great deal. She knew that she was close to being called a cougar, if that was not a title some people were already giving her. It was just one of the perks of being thirty and surrounded by a bunch of teenagers. She should probably settle down but she was too fiercely independent for that. She didn't want anyone to think she was theirs.

In a way, Devyn was lucky with that little nickname she chose for Guy. She said it in front of one who probably would mind it the least. The worst she could do, and she didn’t intend to, was to tell Guy about it. And she already knew he’d shrug it off. When you are mocked about your height or age by some cocky idiots with something to prove, mixing his first and last name into one was really nothing. That didn’t mean Tamara would let her keep going with just every other staff member.

Tamara studied the girl before her. It was already hard to deal with a broken heart, especially at that age when you seemed to take things way too close to the heart, but when you added a power that could easily go out of control because of this, you had the perfect recipe for disaster. Tamara tried not to pry too much. At her age, she didn’t like adults coming in and telling her she would get over it. If that girl was anywhere like Tam at her age, she wouldn’t want to listen either. “If anything needs repairs, you just have to warn us, we’ll have it fixed,” she said, making a mental note to check if they ever sent someone for a new window for her room. The attitude she gave her was so what Tamara would have done that she suspected things to be bad for the girl. She shook her head as she tried to deflect the attention on her. “How I feel doesn’t really matter. I know it’s the last thing you want to hear but you’ll get over it. Give it time. Meanwhile, we’ll have to make sure windows and mirrors are the only things in danger around you.”

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn had to deal with a broken heart, many times and funny how it was all around during her time at the school. Perhaps it was the schools itself that was causing her to have this horrible luck, but could she really blame it on the school? She could blame it on her mom but her mom didn't dislike her and do the things that she did at first. So was it Devyn? Was Devyn the one that was really the problem behind all the shitty things that she had to keep going through and people just expected her to get over it each and every time? She did of course, eventually but there was always damage done, power lost control over, and then that period of darkness. Repeating all the steps over and over and this was now the fourth time, the time where Devyn honestly didn't think she could handle it anymore.

She let out a deep sigh and gave a nod of her head at Tamara's words about when she would need things repaired. Well it was just the mirror and the window, perhaps her bed later on but for now everything else was in good condition. Devyn tried to change the subject but the adult women was not going for it and stated that how she felt didn't matter, even saying the words that were in fact the last thing that Devyn wanted to hear. Then why would you say it if you know it’s the last thing I want to hear? Devyn thought to herself in frustration as the shadows in the room did twitch a little there. "Right, because apparently all wounds heal with time." Devyn said under her breath as she moved a little in her chair, not looking at Tamara. The women was hot but now Devyn was mad at her for being just like every other person out there, but what did she expect?

"The only people I have killed are SPECTRE and I don’t even remember the event all that much, so there is that. There were a few fights, but the other guys started it, and I think I'm far dangerous to myself than anyone else out there." Devny pointed out as she stood up then, sliding her hands into her pockets. "So, this had been fun but I told you want Guy wanted me to tell you. So can go now?" Devyn asked as she looked back at Tamara now, to be respectful of course, but she was still a tad bit angry. "I'm sure you are a very busy woman and have other things to do after all." Devyn added, giving more cause to why Devyn should be able to leave other than the probably obvious fact that Devyn didn't want to hear the same old thing again and again or for it to be implied that she was a danger to the students. Even if it was probably true.

[Tamara Sulik]

Everything always seemed so powerful when you were a teenager. You cannot love more, you cannot ever get over that lost love, everyone’s against you, no one likes you... Then you grow up and you wonder if it was all the hormones that made you think stupid stuff like this or if it was not just a teenager thing to be overly dramatic. Then again, some people never grow out of this.

She knew Devyn wouldn’t like an adult telling her that she’ll get over it with time. No one liked to hear that what they experienced, thousands of people did before and would after them. No one wanted to know you can get over it with time. “Well, maybe not heal per say. But you start to realise it isn’t the end of the world,” she replied. Tamara often felt like they were giving too much on her hands. She was no counsellor, how was she supposed to find the right words to make it easy on Devyn? She doubted telling her how she was thirty and went through her fair share of all sorts of relationships, some ending worse than others, would really help her.

Tamara blinked when she brought up SPECTRE. She seemed not to realise that it didn’t matter who she may be dangerous to, she still had to be watched. Sure, Tam would take a particular attention to those who may accidentally injure others but those who were a danger to themselves needed just as much care. Devyn didn’t want to be here however and she made it clear. “I’m not sure you really get what Guy wanted. Unless you think you’re not important enough for your safety to matter,” she pointed out. She actually took her time to say those words and there was a lot of irony in her tone as she talked. She stood up since the girl did that. “I don’t care who you might hurt, yourself or others or even just the school property. If you are losing control I want to know and make sure we can stop you before it goes too far.”

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn was going to be a teenager for a while longer, not even turning eighteen until December and even then she would still technically be a teenager. Her emotions were strong, even if she often played things off as if they were not important. She had gotten good at pushing things down and making sure to not feel too deeply. She understood that at this age everything was a big deal but that did not prevent her from avoiding the things that would end up being a big deal to her. She was most certainly hormonal and the hormones that she was used to having satisfied were practically being ignored which probably was making things even worse with her dealing with it all. The problem was she didn’t want to do things that she used to, in order to make things better.

She knew that everyone seemed to think that with time that you would get over something and be able to move on. Sure she could see that as true on some levels, but she would not buy that you would ever to fully get over anything. If you loved someone, really loved someone; then that just didn’t go away. Not for Devyn anyways, she still loved those Exs that she had come to love and that included Zoe now. “Not yet anyways…” Devyn mumbled under her breath at Tamara’s words about it not being the end of the world. The shadows in the room were moving around a bit more and Devyn knew that she needed to keep herself in check. It would be pointless to say that she had control over herself and didn’t need someone watching her if she lost control.

Tamara pointed out something that Devyn didn’t really understand or perhaps didn’t really believe the words. “I’m pretty sure Guy cares more about me being a danger to the school and the others then myself. I'm just some other student causing problem so needs to be watched.” Devyn responded back, in other words she did not think that she was important. Not to Guy, not to Tamara, and not to anyone. Perhaps she was being overly dramatic because of how she was feeling about the fact that she was being put on watch. Tamara stood up when Devyn did, oddly causing Devyn to let out a low growl for a second. Green eyes locked on Tamara, enjoying the older women’s body while still being slightly angry for being here.

“Understood. I’ll be sure to give the sexy dorm monitor a call when I feel like I’m losing control. Can I go now?” Devyn asked, after sneaking in a flirt in there because it felt wrong to not flirt a little bit with this kind of women in front of her.

[Tamara Sulik]

If Tamara had grown into such an independent woman, it might have to do with the number of times she had been hurt in the past and she decided to toughen up to survive it. She had not exactly been a student with a pristine reputation, even though she had been a lot more innocent than what the other students seemed to think. She had an attitude though, still had it now, and that caused her some troubles as well. But she went through it and despite how Devyn felt like it was something she couldn’t get over, Tamara was certain that she could. Feelings could die out, or attenuate for you to move on. Otherwise no one would be able to deal with any form of loss.

In a way, Tam preferred to have a stubborn Devyn than to see her in tears. She wasn’t very good at handling tears, there was something terribly awkward for her about a girl crying on her shoulder. Sure, her attitude made it feel like Tam was talking to a wall but at least she did not have to rub her back, telling her it was okay and watch her box of tissues emptying. She frowned however when she pointed out that people cared about her only because she was causing them trouble right now. “I know Guy can look a little rough sometimes, but he genuinely cares for all of you. It doesn’t matter who you can be a danger to, you used to have control over your ability and you have to gain it back. The staff is here to help keep the damage to a minimum in the meantime but you’re the one who had to do the work. If you think you don’t matter, you’ll never be in control of anything,” Tam told her. Self-pity wasn’t exactly something she dealt very well with either and she tried her best to remain polite and tactful but she knew her tone was a little hard at the end. When people refuse to take a step down the right path, they better not expect on Tam to push them in the right direction and do all the walking for them.

Her eyebrows arched up at her comment. Not that she never heard a student call her sexy before but that sounded kind of weird given the conversation they were having. “I just want to know what I should expect if you lose your power and the things I should watch to help you out. Then, you may go,” she answered, totally ignoring the compliment. It was best not to encourage them.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn felt like she was not going to get over it, but she knew deep down that she would because she always did. Even if it would take longer than the last time and it hurt more then she had thought it would, she would get over it. Well, at least she hoped. She honestly didn't know because how it all went down was so different then what she was used to and with Zoe things had been different. Different on so many levels and now it all ended the same as all the others and her mind just refused to believe that it had happened. She didn't want to let go, she actually wanted to deal with the pain until it killed her because she didn't want to have to deal with pain again. It was a bit dark, but her mind lingered in that area from time to time and it was practically a part of who she was now.

Devyn was not much of a crier, so Tamara would not have to worry about Devyn breaking down into tears. She certainly would not do it in front of anyone, even the day her dad died she didn't cry until she was completely alone out in the woods. She didn't like to look or even feel weak and tears, while she knew they were a good thing, still made her feel and look weak in her mind. It was fine when her friends did it and she was there for them, but she didn't do it. Plain and simple. "I know I will get control over it again...I'm just dealing with shi-er crap that is making it hard." Devyn said as she let out another growl with her words before letting out a sigh. She needed to calm down and not be like this to someone that was just doing their job. Not Tamara's fault Devyn had to report in to her about this thing so she would be on the lookout.

"Sorry, I hear what you are saying; just I don't want to hear it anymore. No disrespect on you but it’s the same thing over and over and I'm just not in the mood for being very nice." Devyn admitted as she scratched at her head for a moment, looking around the room. She didn't dislike Tamara and the older women was most certainly hot, but Devyn just sort of shut down when she heard that same old line again. No one got it. Yet, no one really knew every detail of her life to get it so she really could not be mad at any of them. Her flirt was ignored, as expected but it slightly sucked because she wanted a subject change in a way. Devyn thought on Tamara's words for a moment as she tried to come up with the easiest way to say what to expect. "Well I turn into a pretty large shadow wolf beast thing. I typical break or shove anything out of my way in the form when I'm not in control and I typically head to the woods or sometimes seek out..." Devyn started to say but her voice dropped off at the latter part.

She was going to say that she did have a habit of ending up in the location of where someone had hurt her or where they had been, but she didn't really want them to know that. Then they would probably think that Zoe was in danger from her or something and she was not. Even if Devyn did find herself ending up outside Zoe's dorm or in an area Zoe would hang out a lot, she knew for a fact that she would not hurt Zoe. She refused to believe that she ever would and she didn't want people thinking that she would. "Really if you have any shadow manipulators or just stand your ground and yell at me, I tend to listen." Devyn added after a moment of silence, and that was pretty much two ways of getting her other side in line.

[Tamara Sulik]

Tamara tried to find the right words to talk to Devyn but the sad truth was that she felt totally helpless in that kind of situation. It was not something she would easily admit. She generally preferred to do things her way, even if that meant stubbornly refusing help she might need. But it was not about her here, it was about this girl, and Tam didn't want to make things worse by saying the wrong thing. That girl needed to work through the breakup and the pain that came with it. She hoped that Devyn could do this without her help because Tamara would feel awfully awkward talking of this with a student. She was not the school’s psychologist, it was not her place to talk of these things. The fact she did feel the same in the past and could use that to relate and help Devyn clearly didn’t come to her mind. Watching over her to make sure no one gets hurt however, that was something she could do.

She nodded to Devyn as she apologized for her tone. “I get it. Trust me, no one wants to hear the whole “there are plenty of fish in the sea” speech. It’s not even a good pep talk,” she pointed out with a shrug. Of course, Tam didn’t like kids having an attitude with her but compared to what she had to deal with sometimes, that had been mild. Devyn even seemed to get the message and was no longer flirting with her, although that flirt too had been mild compared to what she heard before. Sometimes, you’d think those boys had never seen breasts and she didn’t even have the biggest ones around here, at least didn’t think so.

She listened to the girl’s explanation, making mental notes as to what she should do if that happened. Obviously, getting people out of the way before anyone got hurt. Broken windows can be fixed, a broken skull, not as easily. She looked up at Devyn as she paused in her explanation. A light frown appeared on her face as she tried to guess. Devyn didn't want to say what she was seeking out. She waited a little but instead she decided to tell her what to do if that happened. Tamara remained silent for a moment, pondering about it and giving her time to explain herself but she still chose not to. “Let’s hope we don’t have to get there. And if you ever feel like you might lose control, don’t hesitate to come. Call that a pre-emptive strike.”

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn could relate to Tamara in the fact that it was just better if she handle things alone and at her own rate. Yet, she felt like she needed help because she just felt so loss over it all and she knew way. It was purely because she had worked hard to make herself better and didn’t even get a chance. She was punished for something that happened forever ago and she honestly felt like it should not have been why the potential happiness had to come to an end. Thinking about it was what made it really hurt and she already knew what she had to do. The only problem was that Zoe was not really allowing her to do what was needed. She needed closer and until she got that, she didn’t think she was going to be getting over any of it any time soon.

So while Devyn appreciated that Tamara did seem like she was trying, it just didn’t really matter too much in the end. Devyn simply nodded when Tamara said that she got and smiled a little when the older women pointed out that it was not really a good pep talk. It really was not, if anything it just made the fact that you lost that one fish you wanted to hold onto hurt all the more. She did her best to explain what Tamara had to look out for. Leaving a little bit out, but pretty much told everything that was important enough to know. Just give her orders and stand your ground. Basically you had to out alpha a huge shadow wolf beast. Not to hard when all you had to do was just hold your ground, but if you attacked then it was a different story.

Devyn didn’t go into it further regardless and left it up to Tamara to take and use the information as she liked. Devyn just knew she was just going to work harder at keeping herself in check so Tamara and no one else at the school really had to worry about it. It should not have been too hard; she was good at knowing when she was going to shift and typically got away from people. Even still, when she did lose control she more often went into the woods and went wild there. “Right. Just lock me up in a room with no windows and a really strong door and everything should be fine.” Devyn said, thinking if there was anything else that she might need to tell her. Other than that she tended to rage for a few hours and then calmed down when she was out of control. “Sorry that you have to deal with all of this.” Devyn apologized after a moment of silence. She really did feel bad for Tamara or really anyone having to deal with her like this.