Animal I Have Become

[Devyn Solway]

The shadow smoke swirled around Devyn’s shadow beast form, the form that scared so many but never Devyn herself. The only part of this form that she feared was when she lost control, when the parts of her that made her still Devyn just slipped away and she just became more of an animal. A beast that relied more on instinct then thinking and feeling. Devyn didn’t want to feel anymore, didn’t want to think anymore, and didn’t want to live anymore. It might have been seen as a bit dramatic to others but they did not have to deal with the dark whispers that came along with Devyn’s power. The whispers that talked down to her, put in self-doubt, told her what she really should be doing to avoid feeling anymore pain anymore nonsense of this notion of just trying to be a normal teenager out for some fun.

Normally she could fight past the whisper, but she had been in this form to long already. Hours now, hours since she and Zoe had a talk and how everything Devyn had planned didn’t even get a chance to come into play because it was over. Devyn would not believe that, she was just taking this all as some bad dream that she knew deep down was real but she didn’t want to accept it. How many times had she tried only for this same result to happen to her over and over? What was the point of feeling or even loving if every time you did the other person no longer wanted you? Shoved you away, didn’t give you a chance, and basically said that you were not good enough. Devyn’s room was thankfully still in tack, her window, not so much since she broke through it and landed outside still in her beast form.

She was done hurting and feeling said and now it was time to get rid of this pain. To hurt someone; everyone, all of them. Why she ended up in the library she did not really know but that was the window she came crashing though, knocking over a few desk and chair. Certainly scaring away any students who were not really equipped to defend or attack Devyn. Plus who really wanted to go up against something that looked like Devyn did at the moment. Her two tail's knocking over a few chairs as she let out a growl, moving to go knock over a book shelf. The library staff by now more then likely already alerting the security staff and those who suppress Devyn’s power. Her shadow smoke swirling around her and repeating the same word.

P. A. I. N.

[Guy LeGrange]

These were the calls Guy hated, dreaded, even. A student had gone berserk with their powers, losing control and putting several other students in danger. They needed Guy there, needed him in a hurry, to make certain that nobody got hurt even worse than they already had. These moments caused Guy's stomach to drop, his body to clench, his head to spin. The only worse news he could hear involved loss of life, and thankfully those were even rarer.

This one hit him especially hard: it dealt with one of his students. There weren't many shadow wolves, and someone on security had recognized Devyn's shape from her work fighting against SPECTRE. Guy didn't need to know the details, not yet: he knew what he had to do.

Which meant one of the more humiliating things someone of his stature had to do: hitch a ride. He actually got a student to give him a lift, going piggy-back and dashing through the halls. Under some circumstances, he'd have picked a student who happened to move quickly. for this, he'd asked someone with higher than average stamina, just in case.

Guy got to the library and stared. He focused intently, drawing his focus, trying to see if he could lock onto Devyn before he even entered. Then, Guy slowly, ever so slowly, walked into the library, looking around, his guard up and ready for what he knew had to inevitably wait on the other side.

"Solway!" he barked, his voice ringing with command. "You're already in deep shit, so unless you want it to be worse, start humanizing yourself now!" or at least get noisy enough for Guy to locate...

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn didn't know that they were calling her trainer on her, calling Guy to put a stop to what she was doing. She would not have cared anyways, at least not in her current state of mind. She was just so full of hate, anger, rage, and pain that nothing else seemed to matter. Nothing besides destroy thing, making other feel pain as well. As if that somehow would make her feel better, t physically project her emotions onto other in such a way was selfish and deep down she knew that. Deep down she didn't really want to do this, but she was a slave to her power when her emotions got out of hand. She had been working on it and after this little stunt it was just a good thing that she would be becoming a senior. If she had already been a Senior and going to graduate, this little stunt most certainly would of had her remaining behind.

H. U. R. T.

The shadow smoke smelled out next as Devyn stepped on a wooden chair, apply all her body weight in this new form and causing it to crumple to pieces on the ground. Most of the students and staff that had been in the room were either getting out or hiding and Devyn planned on finding those who were hiding. Stiff them out and scare the piss out of them and just soak in their fear. Sadly soaking in fear was not something that she could actually do, but figuratively she would. Already sniffing around and knocking over pretty much anything that was small then her and easy enough to knock over by bumping into it or causing her tails to crash into things. A familiar scent did hit her nose, causing her to let out a low growl and go still. That shadows ripping on her body for a moment before going back to normal and the fur standing up.

G. U. Y.

The shadow smoke spelled out next as Devyn's ear's twitched at the orders from her trainer. A small part of her talking herself down, but mostly overruled by all the other darker emotions she was feeling. Not even bothering to hide and going right to facing Guy. Which; if she was thinking, she would have realized just how dumb doing such a thing would be with someone who dampened your power. Devyn was a beast however; she was going to risk it all.

[Guy LeGrange]

The sound of a splintering chair did little to reassure Guy. He licked his lips, quickly looking out from around the magazine rack he'd picked as a shield. He could hear her moving about, stomping. Devyn certainly wasn't attempting to be stealthy by any stretch of the imagination. Not that the girl ever did, but still.

There she was then, facing him. Guy watched the smoke letters forming up behind her, spelling out his name. Well, at least she recognized him. That was something. Though she hadn't seemed to have heard or at the very least heeded his suggestion/command: she still very much remained in her lupine form.

"Solway," repeated Guy, speaking slowly. he focused entirely on his student as he stepped around, facing her. Suddenly Guy wished he'd asked for a staff member to come along to help, preferably a large one that could act as a mobile shield. "You need to shift back, or I'm going to have to force you," which, given how fierce the girl looked right now, would be rough on the both of them.

Guy braced himself, judging the distance and hoping that he could suppress the other's ability before she got close enough to deal him any serious damage.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn was not trying at all to hide and even if she did try, it would have been hard to be stealthy in this size with her tails moving around and her fur standing up on edge. She was basically a walking weapon and shield, ready to defend and attack anyone that would dare get in her way or tried to stop her. If she had been at least a little smaller and not as angry she was certain she could sneak around. The bookshelves would make almost like substitute for trees and the tables could be like bushes or shrubs. That was a bit much of a way to make the library like the woods, but paper was made from trees so in a way it sort of worked. There was Guy, standing there looking smaller than ever compared to her.

Devyn never was really bothered or thought too much about Guy's height but now that she was at her full size and she was just full of so many emotions she could only think of how his size was a disadvantage. He was smaller than her, weaker than her, but he had that power of his. The power to force her out of this form and make it difficult to use her power. That made him a threat. The fact that he was her trainer and that she had respect for him made him a threat. The growl growing a little louder as her white pupil-less eyes locked on the trainer standing before her. She could already feel her ability waning a little as Guy locked his focus on her. It was at least enough to cause Devyn to get a little more of her calmer thinking back, but only a little bit.

S. A. D.

The shadow smoke moved to spell out Devyn's words of what she was feeling deep down, unable to fully gain control over herself. Her ears did drop against her head but she still let out a growl. Her fur still standing up as the form did start to ripple. The shadows clearly showing signs of struggling to maintain their current form and already Devyn was dropping in size as she started to slowly stalk towards Guy, going still at the order. Make her shift back? That was more than likely what Guy was going to have to do because Devyn's beast side had still too strong of hold on her.

[Guy LeGrange]

The girl Guy knew had to be buried in that predator somewhere. He could practically feel the darkness that had seeped into her. Wasn't hard to see it either, considering the shadows that continued to swirl about the wolf shape. She looked so predatory though, as though judging him to be some kind of threat. Guy couldn't shake the feeling that this wasn't going to be easy.

Sad.

No, definitely not easy. Guy sighed, readying himself. He hated doing this, especially to shifters, but sometimes they left him with no choice. "Alright, Solway, I get it: something happened," probably something to do with relationships if Guy was any judge. He took a step closer to Devyn. He also closed his focus, beginning to work his power, wanting, needing her to shift back into her human form. Guy wanted to go as slowly as possible though, to prevent any unnecessary pain and to give Devyn a chance to shed it herself. As it was, she was in for a lot of trouble, the kind that she definitely didn't want to experience.

"You're going to have to shift back," he repeated, nodding, "and you're already making it so that I have to push a little. Don't fight me," it was something of an order, almost harsh. He didn't want to have to deal with it. He also didn't want to have to deal with what would happen if the sad creature turned violent. The last thing Guy wanted was to watch Slade pummel a student into submission...

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn knew she should shift back, but at the same time she felt like she could beat Guy's power. She was taller, stronger, she was a beast. He was just some human that could cause her to change into her other form. The form that was weak, hurting, and that the inner beast did not want to be. Why would she want to go back to that pathetical form where she could not do the things she could do now; where it took more than just a growl and a look to scare the really tough ones away. No, she did not want to go back to that weak form. The whispers just making her feel like staying like this would be all the better. She was weak, pathetic, alone, sad, unloved, cursed, and the list of words just went on that she could hear being repeated in her head as deep in the inside she saw nothing but darkness and felt the cold. Guy said he got it, but did he really or was he just saying that?

L. I. E. ?.

The shadow smoke moved to form out the question, not sure if she could trust someone that was a threat. He wanted her to go back to being weak, he didn't understand her. No one could understand her. Guy took a step closer, causing Devyn to pause in her advance and her fur and tail to stand back up. Letting out another growl, warning Guy to not come any closer. She could feel some pain now, the shadows replying again and the form breaking down only to reform and repeat the process a few times. The pain was not unbearable, not yet. She could hold on a little longer but it was getting hard the longer Guy kept his focus on her. There was the repeated order with new words about not fighting Guy. Was she going to lose this in the end no matter what she did? Was she always going to lose out no matter what she did? She didn't want that, she didn't want to lose again. Devyn baring her shadow teeth and even making them sharper as she snapped at the air in front of Guy as she lunged forward towards him.

Stopping now only a few inches away from his face as her form collapsed on the ground and the shadows started to break down once more. Appearing like tar as they became something of a puddle that pulled off of Devyn. Tearing at her clothing a little bit, not wanting to let go of her fully and still clinging to her shaking body. "I don't...want to be...like this." Devyn managed to get out, breathing hard as she too fought against Guy's power to try to bring her shadow back up, but could only keep them cling to her body, covering half of her body in the darkness as dark green eyes looked up at Guy from the library floor.

[Guy LeGrange]

Lie? As in the form itself or what Guy said? He didn't know, and he wasn't really in the mood to start splitting hairs with the young student. This was one of those extreme circumstances where the student's actions had pushed Guy into a position where he had no choice. When you let your powers get the best of you, when you became dangerous, you had to be taken care of. That was how it worked. Devyn should be thankful that she got Guy instead of someone else.

Nonetheless, Guy still sighed with relief when the human body tumbled onto the floor. He kept his attention on her, hoping that he wouldn't have to go into a battle of wills. He was fairly certain that Devyn didn't have enough training or experience to break him directly, but he didn't care to find out. Desperation made people capable of great feats, and it often led to extreme leaps in power and control. Elsa Bellefonte had proved that only recently, after all.

"Tough shit, Solway," said Guy, taking another step closer to Devyn. "You're human underneath all that, so you're going to have to be like this." He paused, looking at her. "You do realize that you're in serious trouble? What the hell brought this on in the first place?" Guy suspected relationships.

It was always relationships.
Teenagers.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn still didn’t have the high level training and experience to break Guy’s power; she still had work to do in the department. She figured at one point she would perhaps be able to last longer against Guy’s power; with him being her trainer and all, but for now she could not beat him. She was still weak, pathetic, and had to become stronger. Not just physically stronger, but mentally as well and she was just so tired of trying to make herself better all the time. She knew she would never be perfect and you had to work at the things you wanted to achieve and have, but today she just felt like giving up on it all. Just to let the darkness consume her and reaming in her shadow beast form and let it do as it please until she no longer felt anything. Guy’s power was no longer letting her do that and his words cut through her pathetic want to no longer be in her human form.

Either way, she could not hold on to her power and with Guy’s focus still on her, the shadows returned to their normal shape and returned to the objects that had casted them. Devyn’s green eyes looking to Guy’s feet as she remained on the ground; feeling different levels of pain, cold, and numb. “Yes sir.” Devyn said simply to Guy’s words about her being a human under it all and that she was going to have to be like that. Even if she didn’t want to. Devyn let out a soft but weak chuckle at Guy’s words about how much trouble she was in. “Scaring some students and staff, breaking things in the library, and breaking through that window…yeah, I’m in trouble.” Devyn mused a little as she tried to move a little to at least sit up but could not manage that at the moment as he body ached. “Am I going to be put on some kind of lockdown?” Devyn asked, not right away answering Guy’s question on what brought this all about because she was curious as to her punishment.

Detention for a month I bet. Probably some community services to help clean up the library. Devyn thought to herself, figuring what the school would probably make her do in terms of her punishment. After letting out a shaky sigh she figured she better tell Guy before he got really mad at her. After having to deal with her, she didn’t want to piss him off. “The same old story you probably here all the time when a student loses control over their power. Zoe broke up with me and just…stupid stuff.” Devyn said as she thought back to the time she lost control over her power when her dad died. Thankfully the school had her contained when that had happened a few years ago.

[Guy LeGrange]

Guy stood there, watching Devyn, his attention wholly on her. He didn't really have much choice: his power required his near constant focus and, well, he couldn't be fully sure that Devyn's fit had ended. She seemed to realize what she'd done, even if she talked about it in an almost distant way. Guy felt some relief in not hearing "attacked students" in there, though he couldn't be sure that happened.

"Probably not," said Guy, answering her question almost immediately, "as this was something of an emotional surge. You will receive detentions and have to clean up messes,' he gestured around them, as if she hadn't already figured that out. Guy let out a long breath, his cheeks puffing slightly. "And extra training sessions," he added, almost as an afterthought. That always happened whenever a student let their emotions get ahold of them and went nuts with their power. not much they could do about it.

Devyn's story did sound familiar: a breakup. Guy assumed this was the same girl that Devyn was supposed to bring to him to dim her power. Things had gotten in the way of that, postponing it for quite a while. Now, it had apparently been postponed indefinitely. That didn't mean Guy wasn't going to be sympathetic.

"Everyone always assumes that I've heard the stories before," he said, tapping his hand along a table as he took a few more steps closer. "And I have heard lots of it, in all kinds of variations. Even then, everyone had their own story, their own unique combination of experiences that's led them to a specific point in their life. So while people have felt as awful as you have now, it's safe to assume that no one has felt your unique brand of misery," Guy raised his brows, smiling ruefully. That did serve as the sad sort of comfort to students, even if it wasn't necessarily the most comforting thing he could say.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn was done for now and probably for a good while in terms of losing control over her power today. It had already hurt a lot to have her form basically forced to break down and the shadows tugging at her clothing and body. She had a few small cuts that were bleeding a little that she just wiped at with her slightly torn shirt. Everything was small scale as if someone with scissors had just decided to do little snips on Devyn's skin, pants, and shirt. Everything just stung a little and her body overall was sore from just being in her other form. She certainly felt like just passing out on the spot and felt like she more than likely would do just that. Her vision was already a little blurry but she did her best to fight again it all, not wanting to pass out here in front of Guy.

"Got it. Good thing everyone ran away from me instead of staying to fight or something. I would probably be in a lot of trouble if I ended up nearly killing someone." Devyn said with yet another half chuckle as her green eyes looked to the ground still. Letting out a sigh as she forced herself to sit up and take a look around at the damage she had caused. So thankful I don't have like a fire or water based power. Devyn thought to herself because if she had then she probably would have done a lot more damage to the library. Devyn gave a weak smirk at Guy when he added the whole 'extra training sessions. "Sorry about that. I'll be sure to step up my game at training then and figure out how to make it up to you." Devyn said as she looked to Guy and meant every word of it. She owed him, something she seemed to always end up doing. It must have been a pain in his neck to have her as a student he had to train.

Devyn worked on trying to get to her feet as Guy spoke to her about how everyone may have felt the same at one point or another but their experiences were different. That actually made sense. Sure another girl could have felt the pain of losing their girlfriend as well but the circumstances could have been different and then Devyn’s personality and past experience also played a part in how she took things. "Thanks..." Devyn said when Guy was done as she had managed to get to her feet, wobbling a little bit and having to catch herself a little on the bookshelf. "I'm sorry you got stuck with such a screw up for a trainee." Devyn apologized with a small chuckle as she rubbed at her eyes. Only for her stomach to let out a very loud growl; yes, she was hungry. A side effect of using her power and it just made her chuckle again over just her pathetic feeling. As if mocking herself silently, which caused the chuckling.

[Guy LeGrange]

Yes, it was a good thing that most everyone had run away from Devyn. If she'd outright hurt someone, things would've been much, much more severe, especially in light of Devyn's preexisting record. Guy kept his attention her even now, though it nearly pained him to do so. He wanted to trust her, but at the same time, he recognized a wounded animal when he saw one, and Devyn had been wounded deep.

"You're not the first," said Guy, speaking to her being a screwup, "and several of my screwups have ended up pretty decent in the end," he looked down at her stomach as it added its bit to the conversation, then sighed, reaching up to rub his face. "You do realize that this is a serious infraction, right? Especially considering your record. You've been known to attack people with your power, and this isn't the first time that you've lost some control," Guy had heard something along those lines, these lines, had happened during the attack on SPECTRE.

He raised his head to meet Devyn's gaze. "You're likely going to be closely observed, and you're going to lose several of your privileges. If I were you, I'd consider volunteering to work around the school. There's still some cleanup, and the Security Squad will be recruiting and training people again. You've got to earn more credit here, Solway: you're deep in the red right now," he gestured at the disheveled library around them, as if Devyn hadn't already noticed and wasn't already aware. Guy hated to rub students' noses in this sort of thing, but sometimes you had to if you wanted them trained properly.

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn did in fact have something of a record of this over the years, but could you really blame her with the crap she had to deal with? Well…there were always better ways with dealing with your problems but when your power so easily triggers by strong emotions, it got difficult. First time had been when her father died, that had by far been the worst but again she had been on sort of watch from the start when that occurred. The other two times where when she broken up with in the past with people that she thought she loved. Maybe I should just avoid going out with anyone and just stick to just being friends or friends with benefits…or one night stands. Devyn thought to herself because really this was a fourth strike and normally things worked in terms of three strikes.

The school was thankfully very understanding given they knew how Devyn’s power worked, but she still got punished and it did add to the work load that Guy had to deal with. She figured by now the school would make her get a counselor or something since it was clearly more of an emotional issue over a level of control issue. Still, she was working on both; just the emotional bit was by herself because she was not the type to talk to a counselor. She really did feel like a wounded animal, and now a hungry one so she at least felt like she was not going to lose control again but it was still a good idea that she kept an eye on him. “Well I hope I will be able to end up being a decent one then. Or else you might see me for a year after this one.” Devyn said half joking but at the same time, she was not sure if the school would let her graduate at this rate.

Good things this was just the start of the year and she still had time to work on everything. “Yeah…” Devyn said as her eyes looked down when Guy started to point out that this was pretty much a big deal. Devyn thought to all the times she had actually attacked people with her power and the times she had lost control over it. Maybe she really was a monster and it would have been better if she was just locked up and left alone. She felt like an animal. She nodded at being told she was going was going to be watched and took Guy’s advice down in the back of her head. “Yeah…I’ll get one it…sorry again.” Devyn said as she rubbed at her father’s ring on her finger. “Good thing I’m not sleeping around anymore if I’m going to be on watch.” Devyn said trying to make a joke to lighten the mood because it felt so heavy.

“I uh…thank you for putting a stop to me…and just…well you know…” Devyn added after a moment, rubbing at her eyes and just once more felt so pathetic but did her best to keep it together. She wanted a hug deep down, but she didn’t know if she could approach Guy at the moment without him backing away or something. She knew for sure she could not handle someone backing away from her.

[Guy LeGrange]

Guy smiled slightly as Devyn spoke of being one of the decent ones. he had hope for her, even with the way things had been lately. She'd shown plenty of potential, and a good deal of the circumstances that had come up around her had to deal with her protecting someone else. That would likely lead to her having potential at some point in the future.

She also seemed to understand how deep she'd stepped in it this time. Again, Guy felt a slight pang as he saw the look on his student's face. The last comment made him frown. He might have to find this Zoe, talk to her, see if something had happened there... no, no, he shouldn't get involved. This wasn't the sort of thing he needed to get into.

"You're welcome,' replied Guy, nodding. "Let's just be thankful that they didn't call anyone else in," Guy let out a small chuckle then, before tapping his hand against the side of his leg. He looked about the library, trying to consider. "There's going to be some paperwork to fill out, and you're definitely going to have to show up here and fix this stuff at some point..." he trailed off, taking another of those deep breaths, "but for now, it's probably in your best interest to just head back to your dorm....

"Oh," Guy nodded and pointed, "and you're going to need to get sessions with the school psychiatric help, but you probably figured that was going to be necessary."

[Devyn Solway]

Devyn honestly did hope that she would end up being one of the decent ones, but she honestly didn't know. She didn't know what to do for when and if she was able to leave BA and she just didn't feel like she had any real skills. Sleeping around, working out, and brining her friends out of their shells didn't really seem like anything that she could get a job with. She had pretty much felt lost ever since he father died and she had yet to really figure anything out. Now everything just seemed hopeless, even pointless with her already rolling into her Senior year and still having no clue at all. Devyn would have actually been thankful if Guy had talked to Zoe, maybe he could work something out but Devyn would not ask him. She was not the type to ask for something like that and wanted to try it herself. Sure Zoe said to stay away but she didn't say forever so Devyn did plan on some point confronting Zoe.

"Paperwork for me to feel out or you?" Devyn asked with a small smile, not really one for paperwork but she would do it if she had to. She nodded, knowing that she would have to come back here to clean up the damage and already planned on doing it even if she didn’t have to. She did feel bad for what she done now that she was in a more stable condition. "Yeah...sorry again. I'll head back there and just lock myself up in my bathroom or something if I feel like I'm losing control again." Devyn said as she rubbed at her father's ring a little more before scratching her head. This way she could also get something to eat by going back to her dorm...but that was also the place where Zoe broke up with her. Devyn practically hated the common area of her room at the moment. Guy's next words Devyn had expected but at the same time she really didn't want to heat.

"I did...but Guy I don't really do those things. I don't do well talking to people and...it’s just stupid and a waste of time." Devyn said, and that was how she felt on the matter and really didn't want to go. Maybe she would go to one or two but she doubted she would keep going to the sessions when she really didn't want to be there. She would just end up wasting the person's time since she would end up either not talking, not showing up, or talking about something to make the person uncomfortable until the just gave up on her or didn't want to help her.