Post by François Laffont on Jul 30, 2014 9:51:37 GMT -6
Summer was there. The sun was up, the temperature was warm and there was no school. Yet Franck wasn’t really feeling the excitement that every student should feel under such circumstances. In the five years or so he’s been here in Kalispell, Franck had tried to contact his mother only twice. First, only a few weeks after coming here. The letter came back to him, unopened. Return to sender. Franck had tried his best to act as if it didn't affect him but it hurt him greatly to receive such a clear sign from his mother that he no longer existed for her. He had poured his heart in that letter, not accusing her once, telling her more in details what he had and she thought was the work of the devil. He told her about his life here, how much he missed her despite how they parted ways. And she did not even bother reading it. The envelope had not been opened.
Why he thought this time it would be different, he had no idea. Maybe because more than four years passed since that time and Franck matured. He wrote her again, told her more or less everything that had happened to him since he left France. Again, he tried not to judge her. She was his mother and he loved her no matter what. She did not return his letter without opening it this time. She read it and wrote back. That fact had him hopeful when he finally saw the letter in the mailbox. He was glad, he feared she might have changed of address. His father was at home and Franck didn’t want the man to see the letter. He knew Simon Laffont was only trying to protect his son but François needed to read it.
He told the man he was going out and should come back in a short while. He jogged all the way to the park. He would be fine there. He made his way to a bench and after sitting down, pulled the letter out of his pocket.
In the end, maybe he should have left his father protect him. His mother was more or less begging him to leave her alone. She wrote that what he was was not natural. Basically, she put in words what she said in gesture before: she had no son anymore. Franck tried not to cry at this but he felt like the woman just plunged a knife in his heart and pulled it out to toss it on the ground. He was ready to forgive her, he wanted her around but she didn’t want of him. He wouldn’t have thought he’d be so destroyed at the thought.
Why he thought this time it would be different, he had no idea. Maybe because more than four years passed since that time and Franck matured. He wrote her again, told her more or less everything that had happened to him since he left France. Again, he tried not to judge her. She was his mother and he loved her no matter what. She did not return his letter without opening it this time. She read it and wrote back. That fact had him hopeful when he finally saw the letter in the mailbox. He was glad, he feared she might have changed of address. His father was at home and Franck didn’t want the man to see the letter. He knew Simon Laffont was only trying to protect his son but François needed to read it.
He told the man he was going out and should come back in a short while. He jogged all the way to the park. He would be fine there. He made his way to a bench and after sitting down, pulled the letter out of his pocket.
In the end, maybe he should have left his father protect him. His mother was more or less begging him to leave her alone. She wrote that what he was was not natural. Basically, she put in words what she said in gesture before: she had no son anymore. Franck tried not to cry at this but he felt like the woman just plunged a knife in his heart and pulled it out to toss it on the ground. He was ready to forgive her, he wanted her around but she didn’t want of him. He wouldn’t have thought he’d be so destroyed at the thought.