Feels Like Forever

[Seiji Lockard]

It had been a long time since Seiji had last seen Faye and too be honest he was worried that maybe she didn’t want to see him again. He was an odd guy and while he thought they were friends she could have started to see him the way she saw him back in high school together. He hope that was not the case because he didn't have that many friends left as it was. At this rate he was going to have none and then what? Sure he still had classes and his job at the school, but what was he living for? He didn't really know anymore and he felt kind of done. He blamed his small amount of depression just as part of the healing process from having lost friends to SPECTRE. He was sure given time he would heal right up and be at his best. Plus he had sent Faye a text asking if she was at home and if it was okay for him to visit. She had responded back and he was no here so that had to mean she was at least okay with seeing him.

"I need to tell her what I found out too." Seiji said to the snake that he brought along today, which was Sapphire. He had been carrying her around for the most part since she was like his comfort snake. She didn't like cuddle him or anything, but her being around just helped him keep a level head while he was feeling off. After parking his red Viper, he got out, locked it up, and headed to Faye's door. Yes, he had a very nice and expensive car because Seiji was actually a pretty wealthy guy despite how he acted and dressed from time to time. Heading up to her door and after messing with his hair a little he knocked on the door. Keeping a hold on the papers he brought that was in a folder. "Faye its Seiji. Seiji Lockard." Seiji said giving his full name, as if he was worried she would have forgotten him.

[Faye LaBeau]

It had been far too long since Faye had seen Seiji and she was truly to blame. She'd fallen off the face of the earth with everything that happened with her personal life and it left little left of her for friends. Not to mention, Dean hadn't exactly loved the idea of her spending time with friends of the male variety once he'd had her again. That was history though and it was time to move on.

Faye had decided to sleep in after a long week, happy it was finally her day off. Finally away, and brewing coffee but not yet dressed Faye answered the door. A smile immediately plagued her face and had she not been carrying scolding liquid she would have flung herself at him. Instead she carefully pulled him into a hug and said his name feeling content. "I've missed you." SHe said honestly then pulled away quickly upon remembering, "Is there a snake that could potential kill me somewhere on you or is that hug ok?"

[Seiji Lockard]

The door opened and Seiji could smell the scent of brewed coffee that seemed to go hand in hand with Faye. This woman loved her some coffee, which Seiji did find interesting considering her power but then thought it might have been another side effect. Like how her body tended to be very cold so she liked to drink hot things as a way to warm herself up a little bit. He was not sure and did note to ask her about it later but at the moment he was distracted with what Faye was wearing, or lack there off. She was not like in the nude or anything, but clearly had been in her pjs and for a moment he felt bad for stopping by when she was probably wanting to just sleep in for a bit. He knew she had taken some time off of work and would be coming back to it so probably was just catching up on sleep.

The hug actually caught him by surprised but he wanted it, wanted to jus thug her tight and just know that yes she was still alive. The smile made him smile in return and moved his arms to hug her back. "I missed you too. I was so worried about you." He admitted, looking away a little bit but it was true. She was pulling away quickly which had him wondering if he said the wrong thing somehow but her question made it clear as to why she moved away. "Well Sapphire is poisonous but she likes females and I can promise you none of my snakes would ever harm you." Seiji said with a nod, opening his long jacket and pointing to the pouch where Sapphire was just curled up in and not even caring about what was going on. "May I come in? I also kept my promise and looked into things for you." Seiji said, not sure if she wanted to discuss such matters right now and quickly went to say something else.

"How have you been?" That was the real question he wanted to ask, to find out how she was doing. How she was taking everything and if there was anything that he could do to make it better. She was his friend after all and he did what he could to help out his friends.

[Faye LaBeau]

She smiled and nodded as he told her that yeah he had a snake on hip but it was the one she was pretty sure she liked. She also knew that his snakes didn't particularly seem to like getting close to her due to temperature or whatever.

"Oh! Of course and good!" She chuckled as she stepped to the side. SHe didn't realize she hadn't invited him in to begin with and instantly felt rude. Her apartment was very Faye. Her white fluffy cat, Loki quickly made his way to the new intruder to check him out, rubbing his big fluffy body against Seiji's leg.

"Sorry." She said as she grabbed the meowing beast from the ground more concerned about upsetting sapphire. She'd honestly forgotten about what she'd asked of Seiji with everything that had gone on.

"I've been good." Real good, she'd finally taken out the trash. "What about you? Can I get you anything?"

[Seiji Lockard]

No, none of his snakes really like the fact that Faye had a cold body, since they were cold blooded and she would just make them cold. Seiji was nice and warm and this was Sapphire so she was likely to stay right where she was with no concern with what was going on so long as her master was not in any danger. "Thank you." Seiji said with a small chuckle as it dawned on Faye that she did not really invite him in and while he assumed that he was allowed to enter into her house, he still wanted to be respectful to her. Waiting until she stepped to the side before he would enter the house, already looking around because well he was very curious and never been in Faye's house before.

A fluffy white cat appeared and Seiji did go still for a moment since cats had been known to kill snakes before. Still Sapphire didn't seem concerned at all and the cat seemed friendly enough. The cat's body rubbed against his legs and Seiji carefully bent down to pet the cat. "This is...Loki right? I remember you wanted me to meet him before. He is really soft." Seiji pointed out, enjoying the feeling of the cat on his fingers and how warm it felt compared to the smooth and warm or cold feeling he got from his snakes. Faye was picking up the cat and then apologizing which had Seiji shaking his head no. "It's fine. Sapphire is not even worried about him and she gives warnings first too." Seiji pointed out since his snake would not just bite unless Seiji was in danger.

He smiled when he heard that she had been good. That was very good to hear and he was happy that he still had friends left. That he didn't lose them all when SPECTRE attacked. He was still looking around then, heading for somewhere to sit, but probably was going to just end up sitting on the ground. "I'm okay. Busy with school and work so I have not been able to mourn properly, but I should be fine. Oh, can I have some coffee?" Seiji asked after pointing out how he was doing, but he did not want Faye to be worrying about such things at the moment.

[Faye LaBeau]

"the one and only." She chuckled as she buried her face into her kitten. "Thank you." She chuckled as she let the cat jump down from her arms getting the ok that the snakes weren't entirely concerned about her beast, which was good. She doubted that Seiji would come over without a snake and she did hope he would drop in more often.

"Of course!" She said leading him into her impressively clean kitchen. That was the perk of not cooking, things didn't tend to get dirty, except for her coffee pot of course which was a pathetically old, worn, and overused piece of junk which had clearly seen better days. She grabbed a white mug from the cabinet and filled it up three quarters of the way before stopping. "Milk and sugar?" She asked as her face dropped when he mentioned not being able to mourn.

"I'm sorry to hear you lost friends." She said sincerely. She hadn't been in Montana during the entire event and was thankful for that. "It must be very difficult."

[Seiji Lockard]

"Nice to meet you there Loki." Seiji said with a smile, looking at the cat and was pleased to see the cat and Faye seemed to have a good relationship. Seiji had heard about cats that would claw your face off if you picked them up and put them near your face. He did not believe that was the case for all cats, but he would not risk it unless he got to watch a cat and get a good understanding of its temperament. The cat had jumped down and seemed to do well cat things. Seiji did plan on stopping by to see Faye more often if she was okay with it. He liked the other woman and she was very pretty so he did enjoy looking at her. He did look away for a moment, feeling like that was a bit creepy to think about for a moment.

He followed her as she led the way to the kitchen and it was super clean, as if she didn't cook in it at all. That could not been the case right? Seiji had in his mind that Faye was some like super cook, or at least that she could make super cool desserts that were related to the cold thanks to her power. He looked around the kitchen a little bit, taking in the details as she pulled out a mug and started to fill it up. His observation breaking at the question. "Yes please." Seiji said with a smile, happy to have some milk and sugar in his coffee. It was nice to not always have it better all the time. Plus the sugar and milk would add to helping him staying awake and having energy. He caught her face dropping and felt bad, knowing he should not have brought it up. He smiles at her for the apology even if it was not needed.

"A lot of people did. I'm just happy I didn't lose them all. Happy you were not there when it happened." Seiji said, knowing that if he lose what few friends he had left, he would not be able to recover as easily as he knew he would at some point. *he poked at the counted a little bit and nodded. "A little, but that is why you surround yourself with those who are closest to you and work through it." Seiji said with a small smile at Faye. She was a close friend of his in his mind so thought seeing her would help a lot too.

[Faye LaBeau]

Faye nodded and added some milk and sugar to the black drink, turning it a pretty toffee color before pouring her own cup. Her frown deepened as he talked. "I'm glad I wasn't either... but i'm pissed i wasn't there to help honestly." She said feeling guilty about that. It felt like she was spared, and she didn't think she deserved it.

"You're always so optimistic." She said noting what he spoke of next. She didn't understand how he could be ok and just move on. She also felt bad for not going to him given the circumstances. She hadn't really lost anyone, he had.

"I wish there was something I could say that would be of more comfort...." She felt like a bad friend. "I'm happy you're here though." Maybe the coffee would help. She handed him his mug. "I can stick a shot of whiskey in there too if you think it'd help." She thought of as an after thought. Alcohol and coffee were her cures for everything.

[Seiji Lockard]

The coffee smelled amazing and he was ready to have it now, but he had to wait until she was done making it and handing it to him. Sapphire moved a little, peeking her head out from where she was to see what was going on and where all that heat was coming from. Asking her master and being told that it was from the coffee pot. The snake having a small desire to move and curl around this coffee pot but that meant effort and she was pretty warm in Seiji's pocket at the moment so stayed there. "I wish I would have been there to help as well. Was off at a snake show." Seiji informed her and just felt bad that he was off somewhere having fun while his friends and people he cared about were off getting hurt or ending up dead. He lost two of them and the loss did hurt him deeply but there was nothing he could do about it. If he let his sadness consume him he would not be able to do anything and would be useless to those that were alive.

"I try to be. I'm no good depressed." Seiji responded back with a small chuckle, but he felt it was the truth. He thought he was better when he was happy and able to comfort others and help them out. It was not easy to just move on, but he tried. Holding onto them would just hurt and he just had to keep them in his heart on not weighing down his mind. He gave her a warm smile when she wished she could say something that would comfort him. He next words were pretty much all she needed to say really. "Saying that is more than enough." Seiji responded reaching out to careful take the mug so he would not spill anything. Really her words were more than enough because he wanted to feel like he was wanted around and that he was not just taking up space. He being happy that he was there with her and not dead or off somewhere else really did make him happy.

He chuckled at the offer for her to add some whisky in his coffee, shaking his head no. "I'm no light weight, but mixed drinks affect me pretty fast. I don't think you want to handle a drunk me. I blush a lot and talk a lot more." Seiji admitted and there were other things that came with a drunk him and that was him being more at the will of his snakes who always wanted him to try and hook up with someone.

[Faye LaBeau]

"No one is good depressed, but depressed people also don't choose it, it chooses them." She said looking at him seriously. "And it's important to feel.. you need to feel and get it out and cry and all of that." She said, she hated when people tried to act "strong." No. Fuck that. If they weren't meant to have feelings evolution would have ruled them out a long time ago. He'd been through some shit. He deserved to feel however the hell he wanted.

Faye smirked as she went for her liquor cabinet. "I like the idea of that." She said teasingly as she poured whiskey into his mug until it reached the top. "I've never seen a talkative blushing Seiji, but i can't say I won't enjoy it... plus your little friend might enjoy the extra warmth." She capped off her own drink as well.

[Seiji Lockard]

"Very true. It’s all about the chemicals the brain and the body releases doing moments of sorrow. Some people are better at getting better, but others have a chemical imbalance and need medication to help them out along with talking about it. Talking and thinking about it is what helps me." Seiji said with a small smile, feeling a little bad that he went on a small rant there but he caught himself early on and wrapped it up. He did not want Faye to have to deal with long talks about depression, how it worked, and how to treat it. He nodded at her next words about how it was important to feel and get it out. He was a very strong believer about talking and letting his feelings out since he knew just how healthy it was. "I did have a small cry when I first found out." Seiji admitted and felt Sapphire move around in his pocket a little bit.

He did not mind crying but he didn't do it often or for that long. He was just not the type to just ball his eyes out. Plus his snakes had a hard time understanding sadness and would ask a lot of questions and he would have to do all of these explanations. His snakes did a pretty good job at cheering him up as well, so he never really did stay sad for too long with them around. There was a smirk from Faye and she went off, coming back with some whiskey, saying that she like the idea of that. What? Why? Why would she want to see me all blushing and just being weird? If she kissed me that pretty much get the same results but less of a heart attack...maybe. Seiji thought to himself, not stopping her from adding the whisky to his coffee because this was her house and he would have felt rude to turn her offer down. "I uh...but...thank you." Seiji managed to get out, already feeling embarrassed.

He sipped at his coffee, loving the warmth from it but could also feel the whisky in it. Knowing that because he mixed it with his coffee it was just going to affect him that much quicker. Just great. "Sapphire would like the extra warmth, but she might also start suggesting to me other ways to get warm and I don't want to end up being rude to you after you have always been so kind to me." Seiji said as he looked away for a moment, sitting back on the couch and taking another sip of his drink.

[Faye LaBeau]

It was interesting how formal Sei continued to be around her. She'd never met anyone quite like him. "Relax." She chuckled as she took a sip of her own irish coffee. "And you do what you want to do. You don't always have to be so polite you know." She winked not entirely sure what she meant by that but not overthinking it anyway. Seiji could probably do well from some flirting anyway, it'd loosen him up.

"So." She started as she made residence on her couch. "You said you had some more information for me?" She asked raising a brow deciding it was best to change the subject for his sake. As much as she wanted to see him drunk and letting loose she also didn't want to make him uncomfortable, especially considering everything he'd been through.

[Seiji Lockard]

Seiji was a pretty formal guy; it was something he had been raised with. To be very polite, show his manners, and remain gentlemen at all time. All of that plus the fact that Seiji was sort of shy in a way. Not in the way that he would stick to himself and not talk to people, but in the way that he didn't really have the guts to do bold things unless it was for a friend. If he did something big, drastic, or brave then it was probably because he had been asked to or he was drunk and even then it was likely his snakes telling him what he should do. He was most certainly one of those types that could not help but to do what he was told, so long as it was not hurting him or anyone else and it was not outright bad. "Yes ma'me…er, Faye. Sorry." Seiji apologized as he gave a sort of embarrassed chuckle and just took another sip from his drink, loving that he was feeling warmed but also could feel it flowing through his system.

"You deserve politeness. You are polite to me." Seiji responded back and in a way that would be something he would stand his ground on. How he treated someone, his kindness towards them, was not up to debate. He cared about them and so long as they wanted him around he would do what he could for them. "Oh right." Seiji said as he took another sip of his 'going to get me tipsy' coffee and set it down. Taking out the folder from under his arm when Faye brought back the subject of what he wanted to show her. "Remember how you asked me, well gave me permission to look into your mutation a little more closely to find out more about your child?" Seiji asked as he started to pull out the files, all of them form of different documents on Faye, even breaking down her genetic makeup.

"According to my research on you as well as other mutants, it stands that there is an 87% chance that you or your power were not the cause of the loss of your child." Seiji explained and yes the number as not one hundred percent but it was still pretty high and he had the backing to prove that it really was not her fault or her mutations for her baby being lose.

[Faye LaBeau]

Fayes eyes could have rolled into the back of her head. "I don't. I'm your friend not your higher up or any of that." She chuckled. "Yeah i'm nice to you but that's because I like you." She wanted to smack him in the back of the head, and had he been someone else like Dex or someone she probably would have. But Sai, he was more fragile. She was someone she tended to act a little lighter around in fear of corruption, of course she was doing one hell of a job by boozing him up.

She took another long sip from her coffee in an attempt to hide how nervous she was to hear about his research. She knew what the baby looked like. She knew there was a good chance it was her fault. She believed it was her fault, she always had. Even if it wasn't her mutation, it was her body that failed to do the one thing it was supposed to know how to do. It was her body that had betrayed her daughter.

"What?" She said unsure if she heard him correctly. "Wasn't my fault?" She blinked several times, setting the coffee cup down on the counter as everything she believed half a second ago was tested. She'd learned how to live with what she believed were facts but this changed things. It brought up a whole new wave of emotions, a whole new wave of questions. "How could it not be my fault? No... i mean. So it wasn't my mutation." But it was still her fault. "But i can... I mean I might be able to..." She shook her head biting her nails as she tried to process. "I could have a baby... maybe." She wanted to have a child. She wanted a family more than anything and this news was giving her hope that she'd dismissed a long time ago.

[Seiji Lockard]

"Well, it's because you are my friend that I wish to treat you with the respect and kindness that you deserve." Seiji responded, still planning on standing firm with that no matter what Faye said about it. Sure he would try to be less formal with her, he was just still nervous around her was all. He did blush just a little bit at her telling her that she liked him. Yes, he knew she did not mean it in the whole attraction way, but it was still a compliment form a very beautiful woman who was telling him that she liked him and that was always going to get him blushing. If she had hit him in the head he would have accepted it, not really all that sensitive in those terms, and actually was not all that sensitive at all. He was just...rally kind and that sometimes made him seem to be more on the fragile side. He was a thinker; he could handle a lot mentally as well as physically. He did work out and while he was not like some really buff guy, he was at least at a healthy tone.

There was the 'what' and Seiji was going to ask for her to elaborate on it so he could actuary answer her questions, but she was already doing that. He looked at her as he picked up his coffee again and went back to drinking it as she talked. She seemed to be in some sort of shock, trying to process that the loss of her child was not her fault. She then asked how it could not be her fault, but changed it, working through what she wanted to say and ask. Seiji sat their silently and waited for her to work through it. He understood that it was a lot to take in and that was why he felt a little bit bad about dropping such a topic on her, but she had asked him to and he wanted to prove that he kept his word. He wanted to help her and by the way she talked about it when she told him about it, it just made him want to help all the more.

"It was not your mutations fault, no. All of our mutations are genetic. Sure there have been exceptions to it since kids who get mutations sometimes have parents who don't." Seiji said, but left out the other research behind it that went on to figure that there was dormant genes in some of the parents that did not have mutations, as well as that it did skip generations sometimes. It was still a very complicated and still other thing to be tested but after his test he was sure that her mutation was not the cause of the loss of her child. "You baby would have been born a mutant most likely, but what is really important here is the fact that even with your body running cold, the fetes would not have been effected by this. Proof of that can be found in the fact that you were able to get pregnant in the first place so you are not sterile." Seiji went on to say, which basically was telling her that yes she could have children and that again it was not the mutation that had killed her child.

"There are still a lot of other factors that could be at play for why you lost your first child, but I would need to run a lot more test and need certain sample." Seiji said, but left that part a little bit vague since he did not want to push things too far and it would be a little weird for him to do. He would have to get a sample of at least one of her eggs and some sperm from the father to figure out if it was her eggs or in fact something in the father's DNA that caused the first loss of the child. There were still other factors to be tested, but those were the next ones he could think of and he certainly didn't have the technology to obtain said things from humans but he could test them if he obtained them. It would still be weird so he was not really bringing it up unless she asked, seemed interested in it, and really wanted him to do it.