A Day in the Life of Hadley.

[Hadley Roarke]

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take the time just to listen

when the voices screaming are much too loud

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So I joined track and volleyball last season. The only thing it helps is controlling my powers, but it has not helped a lot in the friend making process. Not that I really expected it to. I've been told I look too angry to approach. Does that face look angry? ^^^ No. Perfection. Lovely.

Still, I wish I had more friends here. I think I'm becoming a nerd, not even having friends in a school full of freaks like me. You would think it would be easier. Maybe one day I'll find someone just as angry as me. And I can't help it. So many things run through my mind, and it just fires me up (haha, get it?). Little things set me on edge sometimes. It's gotten better since I've been here. And going to the gym helps. When I finish my sets I feel great, so invigorated and alive. That's when I love practicing, because I'm not relying on anger to get me connected to it.

JimmyJamJame wrote me. I miss him so much. He helps me keep my sanity, and he eats away some of the loneliness I feel. I wish I could bring him here already. It's been five years. I've only seen him twice since then. I hope he has more friends than his sister. He's a sweet kid. He probably even has a little girlfriend. That makes me feel great, even though I know it's probably a lie. James is too shy and scared to talk to people. I'm too on edge and he's too scared to talk to his lab partner. Seems like my mom hit the jackpot, huh?

Anyways. I'm starting a pity train. I think it's time for a workout.

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i feel i'm walking a fine line

tell me only if it's real.

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cred to beccathegreat
&& the lovely a7x

[Hadley Roarke]

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take the time just to listen

when the voices screaming are much too loud

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Gah. I'm comfortable here. I love life. And then Riley has to come and shake it all up. I like him a lot. He' so sweet, when he wants to be. And he makes me laugh. That's important in a relationship, right? I'm not sure about those things, because mother never had a decent boyfriend. But I'm Hadley, not Kaylyn, so she really has no place in my story.

Riley:

Pros - He's hot. He's a family man (with his little sister, anyway). He can be so gentle. And if he wanted to get into my pants he would have, right? He had that opportunity.

Cons - ... He sleeps with every girl he meets. That's pretty much it.

How can you beat that? A man with hardly any cons. It's just.. Am I scared? Hadley, the goddess of fire, afraid of one man? That seems so hard to believe. I just can't trust myself with him. What if things don't work out? Our friendship might be in ruins. But.. That's an excuse, right? Everyone says that.. I don't know. I think I'll go for it. I've never been do indecisive in my life. I always know what I want.

And.. I think I want Riley.

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i feel i'm walking a fine line

tell me only if it's real.

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cred to beccathegreat
&& the lovely a7x